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Wednesday, February 29, 2012

consolidating everything now on littlenemooccupywallstreet.blogspot.com 

Monday, February 13, 2012

sleep does nothing

caitlin,
I seem to exist on a loop. I enjoy your latest Facebook photo it reminds me of humanity. I've had a hard time with the JTHM level and slept for 3 days. I need my medication. I live at west park church. Excellent photographs on saturday with lauren whom you chose.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2/14/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 480/8 james hughes days

i  love queen 

Friday, February 10, 2012

pearl forrestor is in the premium mobile where caitlin rodriguez should be. james hughes is the architect technically this makes him the forever god. jesus christ.

I have to take a period of time off to fix myself. This was suggested by the woman I call queen/I need my medication or I cannot move my body and am down to caitlinrodriguezhusband. Re-read all of the entires, it's something like a comic book nightmare for some n.y.c. creature that lives on the street I fucking wish it was bullshit, sadly it is not. Eminem inspires me. 
caitlin,
there is no reason to make artwork there is no reason to create there is no reason to play a game against people I want nothing to do with any of this I want my life back.

-Little Nemo
(Christopher)

Apart of Occupy Wall Street
A caitlin rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
2/10/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 477/8
james hughes days

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

the d in detroit (inspired by wealth still republican)

okay this is a note to myself and maybe it's helpful to you caitlin by either hughes or the woman in prium mobile the throne of god in this project made this real (on a book of fashion from bryant park <- where I once sat and had others pretend you and your father were on HBO resetting the princess -> I defeat democrat and understand the system that he built inside my eye.


I didn't create Nemo Deusmirone and I therefore become Nemo Deusmirone my mind was fried out by some guy I dont' know who this is I named him spikehill in brooklyn but whoever this was he didn't like my art ethic and made me as stupid as fuck.

The system as I understand it was that I was to literally be little nemo.
I'm told at the time that this project will engulf my school and together we will create a harry potter series.
I'm told the entirety of the school is involved and behind me, sarah neufeld from the arcade fire is involved and probably still is. I see her in times square (this is how prium mobile lets me know someone has entered my world throughout the years)

On the other end through the technology and attacking faith in my medication they attempt to erase my memory, fry out my mind, I create two screws in my bathroom to remember they're doing this as I watch the last episode of the sopranos, this is also why it's "little nemo on hbo" + HBO = emotional depth which this project works in, emotions as energy, music as energy and the symbolism in music as energy (none of this works without adderall >- fuel for my mind and I was prescribed with insurance and student loans when they found me, the system is based on someone who lives in hell's kitchen and doesn't have problems getting food or have to fear being hit by a deli store owner and have to block this)

I refuse to drop out of art school and in this project there are elements, a mass amensia, it's somewhat like dunegons and dragons and a level I call little nemo but I don't take this seriously at the start and allow something to poof into me that's pure psychological sickness and never get it out.
I also, in configurations of thoughts, end up with the people who cause pain/psychological sickness.
This is a configuration I call demon and through the years these people have taken care of me and are likely the only way a tv station will exist.

Okay ->

I don't create little nemo and become engulfed in speaking to the project in a psychotic state.
I'm not planning directly and I'm not being honest that I don't want Alex Blevins reading my thoughts
Brock Daves is downstairs, I know this because I call him and hear him downstairs I use my sound equipment for this.

Okay, I end up fucking up the project really badly because I end up letting the people on the other end control me and after my mind snaps when queen is invented in the 1997 book level I have no personality and leave the note to keep making art and they'll let me go.

I refuse to move to connecticut and later when I pretend to be suicidal they tell me to "call christine" this is when it's implied that christopher bently is involved, this is when a "bentley" truck comes by but I just don't want to be in the school's project anymore this is when we're in the era I name Johnny the Homicidal Maniac. Because I don't use the little nemo focus ability to get whoever is tormenting me out of my body I can barely cast they're burning out my mind and don't want me to recall the real affects of my medication, ability to edit multiple functions of thoughts, ability to write screenplays as I walk through the streets, the sort of thing artistic geniuses on adderall experience in new york city who go to film school and want to storm the industry with their thesis.

Okay, because I fuck this up so badly I end up creating "johnny the homicidal maniac"
and this creates a permanent format I refer to as JTHM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_0rm8qbQJE&list=UUkOgxww4QlS62Xby2ALjOqQ&index=17&feature=plcp

that's from my thesis, luke pendly plays the role of JTHM
I figure just make it through my thesis they'll let me go, even hide by going off the medication/I am manipulated into this (you died a new person is born) I pretend to be suicidal anything to get out of the project.
They have to let me go when I run out of $ or SVA there's no reason to document me after SVA
but this isn't how this works, it's always the same little nemo religion
my logs of this are left my priumium mobile who told me this would go on longer than I could imagine
at these times james hughes explains things to me on the dream scape, I have creativity and my medication the dreams are interactive

JTHM gets created in hell's kitchen, my retina changes, the lines from my script are me talking to "larry" james hughes. all of my symbols are infultrated by him, my personal symbols.
I place ketu in the ocean which in the roundabout way I just used [this also means something else but this is for me and you]
when I'm speaking out loud and aruging about either the agerholms, the guptas, seizuring in the street speaking out loud or trying to take hold and control with the seizure I am in a mode called JTHM
in little nemo this is usually when I loose and I recognize this as something that's supposed to be after I am propelled out of somebodies astral realm which is prepared/tested @ SVA with false realms (that at the time I believe to be real when james probes my mind, leads to me conclusions and inverts me to make me republican)
JTHM leads to begging if pushed, seizuring, and it appears the highest level is I  beg the person on the other end to stop, this doesn't actually affect or do anything.
JTHM by democrat was built by a logic trap, if I love gunnar but I hate him and want to use him as a symbol to destroy his child/a symbol of greed I must be cursed b/c a.) mark's birthday is in the church b.) he has my thoughts from when I cried about this and c.) this always resets alongside arun gupta which is why I refused to ever visit home, easton, during this era of my life in which I am in this project.
So the people on the other end could never make JTHM real, so the bounds of reality still exist, so the sickness religion never becomes reality. This happened in bushwick, this happened in fairfield and I use this for caitlin rodriguez to create ceremonies but this is loosing in little nemo and is a psychological state of sickness or as jpg who I name jesus christ rap star (or was named this by prium mobile) "barrakka"
this state is highly addictive and I can only get it out with meditation and my medication
the hands can get taken out which I didn't know and the MTA can be restored (including my 24/7 inspiration to create art, as my medication was always the base of this, but this is something I was also supposed to forget)
JTHM is the level of sickness that I'm never supposed to go for. It involves the hearts, chaos magick, nothing in this world, attempting to pretend the seizure I'm forced to go into can replace my medication/leads to my face distorting and speaking out loud frequently, in psychosis, to "larry" or "james hughes" in the JTHM mode.
have to get into this later. love u hughes wherever u are.

Little Nemo is the direct interaction of if my body is stuck like glue, people helping me, getting them out with meditation, if I get amensia out, how far amensia goes, my ability to get thoughts, being given thoughts amensia took
metropolitian is direct interaction with the city. have to go.


I came to a pivitol revelation in the next entry to myself

caitlin,
i masturbate in the bathroom trying to create a connection with the woman I call queen all of the simple fucking things I have to do in order to rise as hipster king to fucking survive have become engulfed in this environment my body pauses I'm back at the point where I write about the whispers that say nothing but repeat phrases but take such a fucking long time to get out alongside the fucking hands that have entire universes of rules/thoughts/amensia/end goals connected to them. and give me a reelection of how I love jpeg who mentioned yesterday how all of the systems contradict, queen binds these together I go out and I get the cigarettes that represent her I buy parliament lights and face reality it cannot be that hard to make $ in new york I keep missing the doctor and absurd shit prevents my day there's too much shit to worry about its too hard/takes too long to make $ to worry about my body pausing or frustration being built into me but this is what somebody is doing at night as I read about fashion and start my way through creating a fashion working group at occupy wall street. I wrote this on dante's inferno at west end park church teddy is there after I masturbate and there's a perception placed in me that queen told him/that she told the guy at the other church what was happening when her/hughes/pearl forrestor and metronews (democrat) build little nemo (christianity) from childhood [this is when jpeg starts to help me and I wouldn't break the little direct focus I have if it wasn't for how much I value this person] there's a perception that james hughes told this punk kid Natalie to wear hello kitty because we had chosen him and he was representing my corporate symbol and how I pay tribute to the others (the hello kitty from lever house which was there when I recalled in 2008 that I was republican and created this artwork I name gulliani restoration w here one book is symbolic and the other is direct writing. This is when I'm writing to paris hilton although this wasn't actually her but the woman I call queen. At this time I'm told I'm on HBO and the point system to my freedom is based on hvx tapes creating the highest level of points, the books a small level, literally the system from the film "stay tuned" then I am freed and paid)


this is important and I don't have alot of time in the place I'm in my reflection on the sickness and jthm
but I greatly value jpeg so I will create another entry because this person told me about the fake harvey weinstein and the psychological submergence I live in. I type up dante's inferno and the sickness keeps me moving or democrat would have built me into believing i'm an occupier and attempted to place end scenario with my biological father but I watched vanilla sky and understand I desperately need an ipod and the notes about sickness I must leave myself.

I love you.

You will not know I exist for many years and only when I prove that this exists and the others come to me will I be able to show you the years of praying to you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2/7/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 473/8 james hughes days

Monday, February 6, 2012

arguments against if I'm literally the entity lucifer; my admiration of wealthy republicans of manhattan from my hell, I am BFA I am of the upper 1%

caitlin,
my argument against democrat that I want to be republican, that I want to be evil, that I want to take mark agerholm's memories from his father's death the hate of the anti-me. This person argues with me an attacks me in my world my ability to survive in my world when I do this. This is probably because in the world I've been created into I've been created into being a republican, the word helps me to understand my hatred for the poor that I'm not homeless but in this fucking project. I want to be wealthy and I want to kick the shit out of the homeless but I can't argue or fight energy in the air for a political party I never got to be apart of/had my thoughts inverted to make me apart of. This doesn't really matter at this point since I don't have enough medication/an iPod to build personal thoughts on my love for republicans from connecticut and men who have made their wealth. I wear glasses to represent this in the horror of what has become of my face that if there was a way to embody these men I would. But this doesn't help me on the daily, maybe in a longterm perspective in my beliefs as a man but not arguing against someone who makes me seizure in a game. I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2/6/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 472/8 james hughes days 
caitlin,
The system I live in becomes confusing. I thought I should write on little nemo (christianity) I wear a bracelet to represent the people on the other end some of them help me through this process, to find the medication and to make the system fair. There's a person who makes it so I can't move and I don't have time or an ipod to meditate to get them out of me. Last night I combined myself with the element of my smoking fetish. What has become of my complexion fucking scares the shit out of me, there's this thing on my eye that tells me/gives me a physical reflection that I look better than I do. I'm afraid of the name harvey weinstein I don't even think this person was involved but whoever this was this person erased my memory in fairfield, connecticut/didn't like the conclusion that my emotional height as a human involves bringing you the $ from this hell/a tv station. Through this nightmare you're my god. There's a person who uses my emotions for gunnar agerholm against me and I have to keep acknowledging if I'm speaking about the past I'm talking about something that isn't there, a ghost a girlfriend that's forever gone the life before this was done to me. Everyday I'm afraid I have conversations about being republican but this means nothing this doesn't help me walk down the street or find the medication it merely reminds me that the walls of my mind are gone my greatest nightmare, the invasion of my personal space and my dorm room is my existence after I moved out of the dorm, I named the time when James Hughes is searching my thoughts Little Nemo (xanadu) when I decide to be republican and over-search for ways to make $, any spiritual esoteric emblems or amulets and talismans that would generate friends/$/everything that being a young republican would have done. But now I'm on pause and Barak Obaama represents a night when I cry outside the sickness religion of jesus christ rap star and the racist artwork of being republican in my original self in a period of time when these people spoke into me inside an institution and told me that everything I do is done inside one long dream and I then return to the year 2007. This is what the 2008 election represents, this is what my reality represents. But none of this matters, the system is set up for me to block people/for someone with an apartment/$ inside hell's kitchen and the only time I was able to create an eye that blocks everyone out was when I found out gunnar agerholm was dead and decided to bring you the $, re-enter the city and enter the religion of sickness which is the only way which I currently acknowledge as jesus christ rap star/the creation of moving through the 6th burrough. I've named this "from brooklyn with love" because none of this matters, if I love or hate the dead, it doesn't get me the $ or through the pole or panhandling. It doesn't make a difference or give me control of my body.
Only the medication will and thoughts and getting people out of me. This is an incredibly concept if I wasn't homeless enacting it/living at occupy wall street. One day you'll know I exist and then when they free me you'll know all of this wasn't a lie and the princess will hold the economy of the world.

I love you.

From hell/the upper west side with the dream of a williamsburg, brooklyn tv station.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2/6/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 472/8 james hughes days

Sunday, February 5, 2012

god is cold and made of cocaine and drives your 2001 car

caitlin,
I remember you cold. I remember you made of cocaine.
This is how god should be. This is how the ultimate woman should be.
The people on the other end could have created a harvey weinstein woman, they didn't but this team wasn't  to win now I live in the james hughes team. Although it could have been him the entire time.
I don't have to argue every time I do something now not with james way, things are somewhat back to normal. I want a wife through my hell everything has been taken from me, if not you one of the demon women. You are god of everyone. The republican trapped in time demands a reward for his work in hell.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2/5/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 471/8 james hughes days 

character heartbreak game

caitlin
I have to move several steps backwards before I move forwards.
The demon wife that I demand on the other end becomes claimed "harvey weinstein" whoever this person was they built me out of my creative world to the point that I was able to understand nobody owns my artwork everything I've created throughout the years is in the trash somewhere, nothing that ever said bloomberg or weinstein is owned by anyone or any of my letters to paris hilton. Everything exists in the trash.
The same person built me beyond the person who claims to be harvey weinstein and to the point of reality, however the other demons have voted that I go the way of james hughes, ask for no wife but the figurative wife of your love that can be claimed at any year. I simply have to keep moving, keep going and keep together the world that james hughes built me. Then only hughes will get credit for my existence, whoever exists on the other end is pleased and nobody bothers me.
No form of relationship with the others, simply purpose serving. A game on the other end, move several steps backwards to move forwards with faith in jesus christ who is james hughes.
In a state of psychological sickness all are pleased, I'll continue to make artwork that nobody will own.
All of the components are together. One person gets credit, a simple universe.
I must suffer some form of heartbreak and sacrifice to enter williamsburg, brooklyn partying because in the world of being a child my child self imagines that you fuck men without caring because you suffered some form of heartbreak in early childhood.
I simply have no interest in the human race or very much but upping my # through the game.
My marriage to you is a symbol of the empty of humanity.
My demons demand to affect my world and create the emptiness that exists within my heart.
I must also forever hate my enemy harvey weinstein, then all is well the compromise of my existence is pleased and each element leaves me be to continue on finding my way to reality, nobodies time in artwork is wasted.

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2/5/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 471/8 james hughes days 

Saturday, February 4, 2012

An update from hades as lucifer lives by demons. little nemo (christianity) prefers the demons. They are the only ones who know I exist. And found me medication.

caitlin,
london is an easy option out of the child that is taken ahold of in the system.
If I tell everyone on the other side I will move to london at the end of living through this experience it makes it that the city doesn't exist, there is no form of new york, there's a world for the entity that I am to survive in. This is not what I want, I want to live in williamsburg, brooklyn with a tv station. I want everyone who helped me get my medication to be CEOs at this tv station, I want everyone who helped me as demons to be CEOs I want to marry you/demon queen win a marriage. I cannot expect you to marry me at the end of something that's kept me hostage for years but this was my idea to marry you, to become your boyfriend through this experience, it's the memory that helps me understand I'm being fucked over something fucked up is happening to me and it wants everything that I am in this to be real, homeless, a graffiti artist, it wants to consume the agerholms it wants arun and everything that I was.
Chloe Sevigny was held hostage and whatever this is wanted to take her life and base everything off spirituality when the only ability she had to write was her medication. So she was trapped in time.
London symbolizes my lasik surgery with your eyes and my vasectomy, it is a symbol of an upper class beyond manhattan, I am from new york, new york I am an admirer of the upper class of manhattan democrat or republican, I am an admirer of the original republican who created our city with capitalism that george w. bush attacked. I am capitalism I am the island of manhattan I am fashion and vanity.
I love you, I am trapped in time but dream of london.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

*who lives at west park church, currently.

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
its not tv its hbo williamsburg, brooklyn
this will become real not as an hbo station but as a tv station that will honor the hipster and my misery searching for my medication in a system based on the human mind that refuses to acknowledge me until I reach a point that pleases the people on the other side. Also, I love carl from queens. And James Hughes who is our steve jobs because he fucked hot girls in 2006 with his BFA.
2/4/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 470/8 james hughes days

the city's my church I am a creature of the 6th burrough created by demons from hell who keep me well and fix my complexion to create a tv station out of a hostage crisis that does not believe in the human soul. 

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

I wanted out of this project but I have to reach a point in the human mind that is able to reach the exit point

caitlin rodriguez of williamsburg, brooklyn
I am christopher mastronardi and you knew me in childhood
for many years I have written to you as people speak through my body
I am in a new york project based on perception and the human mind
I failed to protect the memories that make my personality in 2007 and ran out of $ for the medication that runs my mind/the project
because of this I have been trapped in this project for several years
I now live at occupy wall street I pay to live at occupy wall street
this is the closet to my tribe of people I've come or anybody who lives inside the school of visual arts
this is where they started documenting me (people who look like they go to art school: this is the only way I can understand reality, by being near people who look like my people)
I ran out of $ and spent too long allowing james hughes or whoever was on the other end interact with me after I forgot how to get the people electronically out of me/switch from one group of people to another group of people "dimensions"
this was in 2007, I live in these moments of trauma when they ask me if I care what anyone thinks and I tell them I only care what caitlin thinks. It's implied I'm on television at this time but either I'm not or I'm supposed to find whoever was speaking to me on the other end that I call queen, then I become the hipster king (the self proclaimed king of nu media)
I knew the address of the project, had an excellent credit rating and there were no fears in my mind.
I've now experienced homelessness while being rigged into seizures and threatened in the part of my mind that's a child, that I would be placed in an institution, repeat scenarios that have happened.
I am threatened inside my mind but unable to do anything at the moment unless I battle in meditation.
I barely have enough of my medication inside me at the moment
it is made difficult for me to move, I have a picture of you in the background at the apple store my tribute to you as god and my stability in my world as you as aum.
I have a point I'm told you created in order for me to smoke cigarettes to get beyond the child version that's placed into me (where a world is created where there's characters that are smoking fetish girls and I'm tormented, to get beyond this you created this or the person who plays you)
I'm not really a man I'm more a thing that blatantly needs somebody to help him get the medication and in return will make them a ceo when I create the tv station I've wanted to make out of this hostage thing I'm in since 2008 (in 2007 I watch party monster and decide I should use this project to become Michael Alig of williamsburg, brooklyn which would eventually lead to being, peter gatien)
I rarely attempt to write to you in this project by pausing and interacting with how little control I have without my medication.
My mind is segmented and threatened daily and since 2007.
I'm unable to write it's almost reaching the point where it's worthless I have to argue with someone on the other end who wants to be harvey weinstein/claims to be
the people use impressions and at this point the letter's almost over, these fucking white dots come over my eyes and I don't have time to get rid of them.
It's been like this for a long time, there's a creative world where I was told the people on the other end if I survived 635 bushwick avenue apartment 2d without killing myself they'd give me the pfizer refinery.
Then I graduate sva and they did not do this. There is more to this story but I cannot spend all day in the apple store telling it.

I will write again or run out of my medication and stay trapped in this fucking project.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2.1.2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 467/8 james hughes days

lowest level

caitlin,
If there's this many people controlling me there's no point in creating artwork, I'm not making art I'm writing directly to you. James created a mode called dorm room, I need a safety mode where I don't speak to the others. This fucking smell that's created driven through me, I don't have time to focus or enough medication to get rid of it. It changes perception and creates rules and bounds in these parts of your eye that do this on the right eye there's these two points that control perception. It's bullshit this person has me saying, democrat I call him, I'm rambling about Gunnar Agerholm I'm afraid of Harvey Weinstein's name I'm reacting to everything they say. I'm in dorm room mode right now, it's this skyline that I viewed from 2223a1 when they found me.
The people on the other end are putting me to sleep they attempt to create events affect what I do, I need my way out of this I just need a reason to fucking wake up when I'm in this hell. I like the republican woman "mrs. robinson" who's made out of the feeling of my fetish. I need somebody to directly give me the medication or come from the project. I love you, I need to sing daily to you and continue to build my religion, the theosophy of caitlin, as I find my way to reality.

-little nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
2.1.2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 467/8 james hughes days


i am free in my dorm room 
years of my life are gone because I'm forced to sleep when I run out of the medication.
My emotions when I have any are logged by others and placed back into me
there's no reason to be alive if you're forced into homelessness and cannot find the medication
everything I create and do is shit, I didn't speak to people until I found occupy wall street
I don't understand what the fuck these people wanted out of a person or why they won't pay me/somebody come to me. The others have to log these thoughts to help me get to the end