active child

caitlin,
These are notes from my London notebook
I name this: Personal data:
Little Nemo
(christopher)
47 metropolitian avenue
Williamsburg, brooklyn
11211

*the symbol of lies/truth and all levels of little nemo stands in the artwork of live with animals/mollusk surf shop.I have spoken to a version of somebody who played you an "entity" of you while you lived down the street. I reached a level of indigoism which featured you as the title "indigo queen" with meditation/getting others out of my eye. This was not you. Whoever was on the other end had a "caitlin rodriguez" follow me throughout my day in williamsburg. The people on the other end invent days/nights. I start the real show. Then sacrifice myself to assure Little Nemo is associated to your name and not Harvey Weinstein.
I created a news paper for domino sugar as a tv station / a film school you tube which never existed.
I summoned people to steal which was not necessary. I woke up everyday @ 5am to program for a tv station that did not exist.  This is the time dr. sam beckett first leaps and awakens as an airplane pilot.
My days start at 5am because I believe James Hughes and I/him can create a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn out of little nemo. We don't have one of these yet.
Beckett and Al are on it hipster queen. Here's my latest notes from occupy wall street:

I tell whoever is on the other end I want them everyone to go the fuck away "don't say that chris" this person responds when I listened to "it's the end of the world as we know it" walking through the west village with my 2008 iPod. This person tells me to be gentle, that I love people and believes I'm 13. This is the same person that tells me not to say I'll die when I believe in my impurity and my titular team from S.V.A. to be pure. I am impurity I'm made of wall street and the need to be king of williamsburg.
It's the end of the world as we know it:
I saw Gwen Stefani perform this for new years 2000 in Times Square. I film Times Square and explain this in 2008. I still have my HVX I called the artwork I was making silver tiles (ceremonies with energy and symbolism). This is the basis of the church (which is now in 2011 the church of indigoism and creating a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn. Mostly filled by the people James Hughes likes from all the different channels of Little Nemo. Maybe the concept of believing I had my own television station when I lived in holland hill road in fairfield when I was a child came into this, but I only say this to assure that my artwork affront that home symbolizes you being god over anyone in this. This is your tv station you are my apple in hell).
This is still when the lie of Paris Hiton and this tv show room from "one hit wonder" follows me.
I imagine this world dead, the blood of this nightmare is symbolized by the red of Brandon Flowers Spaceman outfit. Please let me find my fucking medication. I cannot reference Christie Cummings and age 15 any longer the religion of this show is not chaos magick inside my middle school this was not what I was practicing and if I was made of anyone's energy (in my energy vampirism) it was the wall street brokers on e26th street and the school of visual arts.
I created magic to get my friend laid with ancient talismans I ordered on the internet. He was beneath me in hells kitchen, I know this because I heard his phone ring in 2D when I apologized to him in a breakdown he caused. Now I can't fucking find Chris Wielk to physically appear. This is why Hughes is church leader, this is my equal. Hughes will decide what I do with these people and eventually tell me the truth of this hell.
I never attended NYU but probably paid for that in it being the year 2011. The magic nobody beat the NYU calendar, now, the creative world where there's a S.V.A. associated and rooting for our AMORC calendar to beat the other fake school calendar will be very pleased. Another Sarah Ritch globe consumed like Harvey Weinstein being god, creations of time and body as creative over the actual creative mind. The world of sickness without medication to fix add in a tv show/art project based on the medication that fixes this.

I realize in Nirvana in Hell's Kitchen that I'm in hell. I'm forced to reference a girl I dated at 15. I want to forget her name but I'm forced to recall this. I find out this stores owner's is an SVA alumni, this man should be working at my tv station where I funnel in S.V.A. talent so kids from whereever read that I hire only S.V.A. in order for us to beat Tisch. He should not be running a crystal store. Not our alumni.
This will probably get me my suite back as the honorary student who created something to say fuck you to Tisch and the other N.Y.C. film schools. Because I like the jedi way of life. S.V.A.
I wanna go home, take off this uniform and leave the show.


None of this will come to be unless I reach the other end and find whoever runs this project.
This channel should be in domino sugar, I will never forgive the lie of this hell for ruining a perfect vision for the godhood of williamsburg hipsterdom.
James Hughes should be launching his Steve Jobs from the factory one of S.V.A. 09 filmed their film project affront our graffiti art. I can only create truth by reaching the other end.
The memory of James Hughes keeps me alive despite the period of time when others pretended to be him. Everybody wants to be you and him. The woman who used to pretend to be you stopped doing this when I admitted I knew this was a lie but this is the entire point of this being your production that I know this to be a lie. Perhaps I should keep my creative world in order but this world is now blood for me to exit my mind or I'm going to live in a world where I forever speak to the air and create newspapers for things none of us own. The factory does not symbolize I as a child it symbolizes Hughes and I. (despite what somebody said to me on the other end).
Just because the computer on the other end says something about me being a child does not make it so.

There's this new hot girl at occupy wall street who I want to hook up with. The punk Marilyn Manson guy has already got to her and seems to fuck every pinkish girl at occupy. I would have become a gutter punk for that (figuratively). They fuck in a sleeping bag behind where I sleep.
This movement needs a capitalist leader so the people in it don't have to be afraid of the police. This woman yells at me for wearing a N.Y.C. cop uniform that I get from the 86th street comfort station (that is filled with cop uniforms and begs one of us to use this for press photographs). This movement needs a strong voice with $ needs an Al Gore.
I have a necklace to represent marrying you from williamsburg a necklace to represent James Hughes protecting me/guiding me (from junk in williamsburg)and the physical keys to williamsburg, brooklyn this is my symbol reset [what I wear as my base symbols in addition to the peace necklace that assures you know I'm apart of occupy wall street so they recognize me and my yellow glasses]
(I write this so you know this I reset with this after I shower on 86th street which used to be hard in a art project that makes it difficult to move without focus medication).
In the morning I come to the conclusion that all that matters is fashion, the punk guy might be truly punk but  I dye my hair as a film tribute at least I know I'm near people now who look like they're from the film "Times Square" which I haven't' seen but am sure represents a C.B.G.B.s punk genre.
I need to find where we're marching and panhandle in order to get to the next level.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on HBO
11/30/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 401/8 james hughes days

look under a bench on the mta. the channel of caitlin's history is there.
Like christ, you want a god you can fuck. 

"overboard"

caitlin,
Time out, for upper west side kids. I hold a disdain for celebrities. I want to be a copote amongst these people but meet them to shit on them, occupy wall street + little nemoon hob is the perfect format to be reborn into indie cinema with the gear in/of williamsburg, brooklyn in the *something I could't read* of this. Bloomberg beware zuccatti park is everywhere is new my phrase to myself. @ night on 86th street I wake up and scattered blankets this is manhattan fight club without yet a leader in spokesman (this will be hughes) a leader is required. The worlds our occupy flyer. This woman has this OWS apparel every time I see this I feel such a fucking happiness that I found my people while quantum leaping from 2006. Maria had let me in, she understands what after 2006 is on my eye (or one day will) somebody currently owns this, controls this until I let enough of me into this body/storyline. Be Merteuil when I return bennedict bitch of pratt, I need a replacement for Anna. I keep watching "every me, every you" throughout the years of this, I need to be returned to my class status. I should not be walking in the rain of the upper west side. In my many years lost in time in your muse title of "your lover's an actress" a vejeta mentality is created/was created from the understanding of time. This is in a world where you marry Conor Oberest and Harvey Weinstein has a daily show where he talks to me about my $ from Little Nemo (he assumes I'm the stupidest homeless kid before doing this, programs my mind and later shits on my medication). I will make your friends CEOs in Williamsburg, Brooklyn; this is my symbol my vice magazine cover or american apparel placement into the cult of personality. This is my place in Brooklyn because they look good on Facebook and are your friends. Because they didn't shit on my medication in hell's kitchen and refuse to come to me. This is why I chose James Hughes as our leader.
I don't miss the people from my dorm room I miss my dorm room. There should be photographs of me like in:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVFLGx8o7XM&feature=related

I am not really homeless I am this creation of these people I call the foresters, this fake graffiti artist.
I was forced to sleep again today, slept for 14 hours some portion of sleep the level of sleep that body sleeps. James Hughes sent me a dream about FHS being flooded and I therefore loose my iPods, or I presume it's James Hughes. I'm decently sure that there's people on the other end who believe this show exists when I sleep, the world of Little Nemo is sleep. This is the opposite of what this is, I should be writing the dreams and having them send me the dreams. I need to study how to program your mind when you sleep that's what Little Nemo is, I'm behind I'm still on symbols of chaos magick, connecting your world as art and the instinct of meditation getting them out of my body. There were original instructs that are given back to me when I reach a certain level this and when I started to kick people out of my body on 14th street James Hughes the next day teaches me how to get them out of my body, a first level way to get past doubt and the people who want my world to be a permanent world that they've created.
I then sacrifice myself for Little Nemo to be known in your name and stay with the music that's related to you as the way to get them out, this is not the way. There are many ways, also Harvey Weinstein invents this secret fear that if I tell the others on the other end then they'll stop me/they know what I know and more. My respect goes to the people who have been involved in this from the beginning I don't understand how lower level people became involved in a conspiracy.

My inspiration is in the drug fueled sleepless music videos of placebo. In killing the baby in me, I never believed myself to be a child, considered my life starts as kurt cobain at the age his life started or ended. At 27.
Forever 27: everyone is fucking me.
All that matters is caitlin rodriguez.
I chose you and Hughes, everyone else is expendable.
The only person I love is you.

I had this revelation at 27 and there's a certain psychological art function of creating these notebooks that I leave around with purposely different material like the notes Keruac left for "on the road" but I'm sure without my medication I won't be able to write again, at least not at the psychological level that I write with my medication. I write anything I see without my medication to let you know that I did something worth seeing, a man with a cat was at occupy wall street, I write about hydro being an excellent media man for occupy wall street, I write about these things.
I need to find a world where I can become an insomniac, there is nothing I hate more in this world than sleep.
I find a road sign in my notes of the good agent dale cooper being trapped inside the black lodge.
This is something like my personality being trapped inside my body and the years of shells.
I've realized in my days in this that the only thing I've ever cared about is fashion, being a model that deep down I hate ugly people. Everytime I look at my complexion I wish they killed me, to look like somebody who's been to riker's island I wish they would fucking kill my body than do this to me. I have never counted a day in my life without my medication to let me be trapped in this shit is beyond the belief in anything humane. If I wasn't a capitalist I'd become a terrorist. I knew this would happen. I knew in 2008 when I ran out of my medication that they'd create a world of a soft/scared/child.
I sat there and wrote to Paris Hilton I created a worthless world of lie. Days, years taken from me for no reason for a human I don't count as me. I would have organized this project to kill the participant if he runs out of his medication. I need to exit my mind, I wear a ying yang talisman from junk in williamsburg as a symbol of James Hughes. I wear keys from "caitlin rodriguez as faile/sarah ritch playing your favorite graffiti artist" as my symbol of my dream of living in williamsburg, brooklyn.
I wear a necklace from made in williamsburg as a symbol of my dream of marrying you.
This should have my medication inside if it would fit.
I wear a peace symbol represent zuccatti park before the mayor attacked this.

I want to return to life now.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on HBO
11/29/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 400/8 james hughes days 

in 98 we all rotate. I love caitlin rodriguez. There is no other form of love in humanity.

This is an edition to a notebook I named cricket (brooklyn = fashion) 

I am kept in illness forced to seizure with no senses I can only restore them with my medication. I am Luke skywalker of S.V.A. trapped in a darth vadar suit I have to take over everything not just my eye but the entirety of my body. On the Fairfield Beach I have to restore my place in my body. On the Fairfield Beach I have to restore my place in my body. I've never been the suicidal type I'll have to find the medication instead. 

Caitlin in the east village I realize that the people on the other end don't give a fuck that I couldn't feel for years. They want to pretend that there's art in what's happened to me. I'm in a project that allowed girls from my childhood access to my mind and body because I masturbated to them. 

These people think they're apart of my world/my art or that their commands can be apart of this. 

I go through this notebook and see the notes of the titles I have yet to go through and write onto the internet so you read this. About the dream of marrying you and the need to find my way back to reality. These are titles I'll explain again months of my life that lead to years as this creature. Days as caitlin rodriguez husband with a body that doesn't count. That's forced to sleep an absurd amount of time, unwillingly and create art that's meaningless and only matters if it creates a new york art legend. 

This will exist in the trash of drifting new york city. 

I love you. Not others of humanity. Not that I ever gave a fuck about any other memory but you. 

-Little Nemo 

(christopher) 

A Caitlin Rodriguez Production 

Little Nemo on HBO 

11/27/2011 

black caitlin heart 

the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 398/8 james hughes day 

part 2 "in 98 we all rotate"

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I mention I'm Jesus Christ Art Star at my graduation. I call James Hughes. But he tells me it doesn't end with him. David Rhodes tells me it doesn't end with him. In the subway the other day I attempted to get back abilities on thanksgiving but a cop appeared. This meditation requires drooling and this childishness, using skills I know for a fact to use knowing how many layers exist that are not me. I would like to hear and feel. I don't have enough medication to get the other side and have to return to panhandling.
It should be domino sugar that we have our apple computers tv station named little nemo from. The technology that will come to exist is the exact technology from Aerosmith - Amazing, this is the future of media and what I'm signed up for in this thing, you have to find a kid from the School of Visual Arts who truly fucking hates poverty in order to create something like this and likely join the illumanti.
I also left the note to myself to daily tell the people on the other end I want out to come and get me.
I need them to come and get me, they were next door to me in hell's kitchen.
This is really important: to note for you and if I get amnesia again:
In Aerosmith Amazing the diagrams you see between the sequences of the main actor with Alicia Silverstone and him in VR are symbols in the human mind. This exists and I need to know this because I require this for programming myself back to reality.
The keys to exiting Little Nemo are in art.
I'm really fucking far in the beginning caitlin, there's a system set up but I had to make this note because it's key. AMORC taught me about this, these people know everything about the human mind but this project let my wallet get stolen. I'm more apart of lucid dream at this point than the illumanti.
I just need the medication I keep telling myself this as caitlin rodriguez husband.
If you're in a thing and you're forced to seizure wouldn't your conclusion be to get the thing that makes it so you don't seizure let alone is the basis of the thing you're in? I'm reminded of Tommy I'm in that scene where he's wandering around his mind, following a pinball in his mind this like the newspaper where I'm wandering around the city programming @ 5am a tv station in Domino Sugar that doesn't exist. I'm on a deadline, I'm told the mayor is donating cash to SVA to 11 other art schools.
(when I run out of my medication I live in limbo in the days of little nemo that don't count in the upper east side bathtub <- that's the days that count)
sonic cannot play sonic the hedgehog when he's sitting there tapping his foot.
I'm told in this period of time that the art school 11 exist and that S.V.A. and ten other schools are given $ every time I create a newspaper from Michael Bloomberg.
I'm sleeping at mollusk during this period of time. I'm tad there's a tv show several newspapers worth of people are created to create a tv show daily, there's a group of people who must be written into this paper in order for me to steal to eat. There's a false NYU psych that I summon daily, psychology, I'm deep in this project in the worlds of lies that are created for me, it works like the film "inceptions" in levels of psychological creative hell or dante's inferno. Layers. It creates shells of people until I destroy the shells.

Harvey Weinstein is paid tribute to as God during this period of time. (I despise this man as Kurt Cobain would have despised the man who murdered him). I'm told during this period of time that you're this queen of a series of films, filmed in williamsburg, brooklyn and fairfield, connecticut. That you're Molly Ringwald. I kiss Harvey Weinstein's ass during this period of time because I'm told you are gaining connections, you gain access to celebutante manhattan and connections from Michael Bloomberg (our enemy) for us to create a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn. None of this was true, in my world my enemy will always be my enemy, a demon cannot pray to an angel that sort of thing.
I was told in this time David Bowie was summoned for you to be on television with.
This means the Arcade Fire, this means Judson Memorial Church and when David Bowie and Lou Reed see this concert. This band means me, my Manhattan hipster class status. I keep saying David Bowie and this line Anna said in to me in 2005 about him but this means I'm in trauma that I need clothing and fashion. I'm told in this period of time that the Republican National Convention is keeping me hostage and only Michael Bloomberg will be able to save me, thus this is the reason that he left the republican party for his third term as mayor. He makes me into a child for me to believe this and manipulates me into promoting his presidential term on mattresses and across from places that represent hipsterdom and my class status like Webster Hall, which Kerri's father owns who I was told I spoke to in Bushwick about owning the Pfizer refinery as my reward for surviving this torment and graduating the School of Visual Arts. I'm going to make a club @ this factory I'm going to create the hacienda with James Hughes. He is my equal and you are the trophy wife I marry, then I get lost in hell where Christie Cummings is on the train and enters my nintendo wii world and replaces you as owner of the channel. This might be why this person thinks she's apart of this project or has equality with the foresters but I wasn't on my medication, years do not count to me in the symbology of reality nor the events she experienced that made her personality apart of manhattan.
She will bring me the medication physically and break the truman show or will never receive any of my $.
I am the living dead, I will not have her place her days over my living death. I cannot return to 2007 but can fix the mistakes that created a world of "hill valley". Where Harvey Weinstein is god of my mind, where I live in a psychological ghetto where he has me only look at black people to psychologically weaken me as the character of nicole richie. The system James Hughes created through my mind is being fixed, Michael Bloomberg was Cousin Kevin but the point is I need to dress like Cousin Kevin.

If you're wondering, this is what makes me happy today:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8yvEYKRF5IA&NR=1

I've based my life on Julian Casablancas, so whoever made it so the system I'm in could rig me so I can look like I do now I much love. I've named this person Pearl Forrestor.
Sometimes I have this flirtation with this women that pearl forester flirts with Mike T. Nelson.

During the period of time Michael Bloomberg has gratitude emotion in the deli associated to the deli store owners for me to appreciate these people every time I'm forced to steal food to survive. Whoever helps me on the other end will help me to watergate Michael Bloomberg, there will be New York Times Best Seller novels about this. There are strange worlds to my world all I had to do was start promoting the assignation of Michael Bloomberg to get him to leave this project. Artist hates the mayor who claims the republican party is holding the artist hostage. Artist knows this to be a lie and plans on promoting watergate and gunshot to the mayor. The artist is told the mayor claims the word republican/upper class/wealth means him. The mayor claims to the inspiration of the artist.
This is another problem of people on the other end claiming time in art can overwrite reality of self/medication and shells.

The mayor overtakes the artists mind the $ is not from the mayor, artist no longer likes the mayor.
On death threat from whoever you claimed to be Live Astro from whoever claimed to be you in Grand Street in Williamsburg, Brooklyn).

Another notebook to type up. BRB.
GA tonight.
Need my medication to promote occupy. Revolution needs a secret leader in a way james hughes will hack the hell i'm in.

i love you.

-little nemo
(christopher)

*i'm named this because you called me christopher.
You did not call me gavin zodiac which I wrote down for years.
This was a psychological title James Hughes explored in 2008 in williamsburg.
For what's been done to me, I cannot have a title that means I'm ziggy stardust and do cocaine.
I am not in this project for the lacking emotional depth that I wrote down on the "nemo paper" that programmed a newspaper for a tv station that never existed.

A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on HBO
ITs Not TV its HBO
(adam's father was an hbo. I never spoke to this person but was told this one times in hell's kitchen. I don't know who pretended to be this person. But this represents my psychological need to create you a tv station to assure you have all the $ from my hell).
11/27/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 398/8
james hughes days

continuing from the prior notebook in 98 we all rotate

caitlin,
I looked at a picture of you and your friends and realized what this thing is or the reason it would create a world where I wouldn't keep this constant demand to marry you. It creates worlds as I leap, the world of occupy the continuation of mollusk. These are good things ways that my creative world will make something but only because of James Hughes. I am very distant from reality but will create a tv station with you and your friends. Because they look great and I live for you, this is something they'd have on a motherfucker party or misshapes in 2006 (the splice year of James Hughes). I see lotus flower, a radiohead video where in the apple store I realized on any level it's worth it to keep making artwork endlessly to you, about you, of you, in the psychological longing of my mind as I search for my medication. If I create a new york art legend you'll probably marry me, deep down I'm a little girl with red hair from southport, connecticut who's republican or has republican parents and her only wish in the world is to have her marriage. She's going to have this marriage, she understands deers and the beauty of fairfield connecticut and the three sections, she likes old maps and forgotten ny. Deep down this girl who said she was republican in 1997 is going to marry caitlin rodriguez or destroy the world.

I would have taken over the republican party if the neo conservatives didn't.
Now I will take over occupy wall street with James Hughes.
Somebody is going to stop these mother fuckers from the south, the moral majority. Somebody is going to assure Al Franken has a television station.
People are helping me that I took from Bloomberg. Like followers of christ they follow James Hughes.
Can't be bad if they kept Bloomberg in office 3 terms.
I'm going to watergate that motherfucker. Let me write now before I seizure.

In 98 we all rotate:

I see an attractive fashionable black women w/Gwen Stefani hair Return of Saturn era on Atlantic Avenue. Even in the living limbo of Little Nemo I take note of fashion. This is all I love and the only thing that exists of williamsburg, brooklyn (hipsters. Fashion. I have sunglasses from Barney's now, gives me sunglasses like your friends on the vacation you went. I named them saint simon/compass after hughes and I and the graffiti art I placed on the door with the missing mario flower pot that was supposed to manifest you inside the factory in the year 2008).

The factory should be the tv station.

In this weeks 'L' magazine there's photographs from when we cut the 6th avenue fence on page 6. I'm mentioned in this article as the man who walked up and down cedar yelling "fuck bloomberg"
I love occupy. This causes a hunger for me to youtube search my digital messages to bloomberg thew night he had nyc police attack our base camp in zuccatti park. "don't burn the library until you've read all the books" thousand of books thrown away. An eastern bag truck appears by our park. Citizen kane never liked william randolph hearst.
I love occupy.

I wish I understood the amount of days I'vbe made art so you'll marry me. Please say yes or my amnesia was a waste.

On the 5 I sleep for 20 minutes under an emergency blanket that I write on the front "bloomberg beware zuccatti park is everywhere". I want the MTA cameras to capture this, it's identifying for a ghost to have a moment where a cop awaken me @ penn station asking if I'm zuccatti. I'd yelled mic check before I went to sleep, this is probably how the police identified me. I wish I hooked up with the girl with the disco ball across from my tent, James Hughes reminds me of this.
He also reminds me today to get to the point, that anything I have to steal anything I get I'm in a project where I should be paid billions by now. I'm owed everything I lost in the course of whoever is on the other side recording my eyes/proving whatever point they're trying to prove.
I'm owed.
Also I will make decisions like if christie cummings is to receive any $ from this project.
She should bring me the medication if she's to receive anything. She is not you, to participate in inhumanity and for me to pretend to be ok with this. In a dream Hughes reminds me of art school Jess from the New Residence, I feel happy. I recall the only beautiful thing I've seen in my years in Little Nemo is zuccatti park filled with tents, the beauty of neo hippies flocking to new york city for revolution the children of the upper middle class/middle class like 1968 flocking to new york city hippie girls named Staci to hook up with and pretend I'm in the real world because there's cameras, somebody's watching the sin of what's happened to me made up because I'm Democrat. I'm going to fuck Marilyn Monroe because I'm J.F.K. because I take adderall and I'm a Democrat and will never allow Mitt Romney to be in the white house.
I haven't seen anything beautiful since graduating from S.V.A. listening to "turn into" in the bathroom and dreaming that soon I'd meet you at the end of my hostage crisis they had to let me out.
I had amnesia the part of me I needed I had to meditate to get. All of the esoterics only activates with my medication there are people I have to get out of me.
There are people on the part of my mind that represent greed that I likely need to get out, to gain back my personality who will ask me what the fuck I was doing.
There is nothing beautiful in my world that represents art school, democrats or reality without occupy wall street. I played "turn into" and I dreamed of you on the day I graduated, I thought this thing ended if I didn't kill myself through my thesis year while being tormented that they'd then give me the factories I asked for and we'd have a channel tv station.
brb