Caitlin,
I don't know how I allowed myself to get stuck in the dimension that's hell, literally the lyrics to Phish - shifty. This is supposed to be a pleasant experience logging my experiences and then I end it when I wish to. I got trapped in the dimension where voices torment me and shitty emotions are addicted to me, the hell of what the bleep do we know. A seizure keeps me addicted to this dimension and eventually creates artistic pride off the sweat of the seizure although without my medication the seizure usually makes me go to sleep. I remember thinking 'fuck not these people' when I got stuck with them. This may be the same people as the foresters I don't know but there are different groups of people who are still in this today, I cannot reach them without medication and meditation/music. All of this is a psychological trick, internal tricks that people do to get to the next dimension. In the world I live in I can't hear real music, there's something on my eye that allows sound waves in, references to eras/things that I did. In the beginning of fevers and mirrors it still mentions skittles/tells me I have bitched out for far too long. I have gotten this off my eye before but only with my medication. After a period of time it seems the people on the other end believe that I've forgotten the real human experience, I however haven't forgotten this or the directions that James Hughes gave me outside the U.N. / the reference to exiting this / ending this from hell's kitchen in memory that you gave me.
The only chance I currently have in this is because I live at occupy wall street. I commented on the pride of having the Fulton Street stop in a note to myself. I didn't go to automatic sleep because my mind paused recognizes the subway as a place for working and zuccatti park as a place for sleep. It's the first time my mind has recognized at it's base having a home, otherwise I wouldn't have heard this command to sleep I simply would have fallen into the baby sleep that has been built for me. Part of the comfort may have been built by the person who claims to be you, I can't tell. At the moment somebody is controlling a portion of my body, I at times believe this to be you although I cannot prove this. Eventually they have to tell you what's happening since I've chosen you as God of this and inheritor of the fortune of my body.
Internally I've found a sense of loyalty to occupy wall street that I haven't felt since S.V.A.
I haven't had a cult of people to be loyal to since I got kicked out of S.V.A. my thesis year attempting to use this as a 24/7 t.v. show to become your boyfriend (presuming at the end they were going to pay me)
I don't like being controlled for my entries which is happening to a certain extent on the other end.
I don't know to what extent harvey weinstein has to do with this project since I've asked that he be kicked out of this. I decided today to live in a permeant form of you as a religion, I've continued to write in the gita. Expanding upon my theosophy of caitlin. I've decided this to be the most important thing, to pray everywhere I go find a way to cut out the human aspect from the people on the other end, simply live in a form of you. I'm running out of medication as well, I need $.
I'm going to create artwork regardless of how little of myself exists within myself.
The only way to prove that I exist, the only way to harness the energy of Zuccatti Park. I believe to a certain extent that Harvey Weinstein wants me to stop making the art, the anger I feel for this in this moment being forced to associate to a thought cap on the other end. I'd rather create shit artwork than stop making artwork because somebody controls me on the other end. We have to harness the energy of occupy wall street into a television station before the F.B.I. appears to take us out in the same way Richard Nixon attacked John Lennon for deportation when he was going to get him out of office. It's my belief in this sort of conspiracy reality that led me to pretend to be republican when this started in hell's kitchen when I believed Guilanni found out I was a false republican and planned on taking the $ from the republican party after attacking them from the inside. Homeland security will attack us if we don't create this movement into a television station, for nugget for something. They'll feed us bad acid like the hippies in the 70s to destroy us, the sort of dirty republican tricks that exist when a movement like the yippies exists. I find as my mind grows with the medication I grow loyalty to the occupy wall street movement. Somebody is attempting to control me at this moment but I refuse to allow this to prevent me from writing to you.
In 2008 a false art war is created between fairfield, connecticut and williamsburg, brooklyn that claims to be chaos magic. This I'm told goes on in the world when I go off my medication and I ignore that this is happening. This is some form of plot line but I find this to have ruined my life to pit my loves against each other. At one point I'm told pete mastronardi is involved in an astral war and I'm told not to go for ultimate lust with jeanette romenello psychologically in my apartment in brooklyn. I don't know what the fuck they're talking about but this is all apart of the game. After I come back from Connecticut I'm told Williamsburg was emptied out for me, all of this is a lie including the story of my biological father attempting to kill me a manipulation of circumstances is frequently what happens on the other side until I control the astral religion and gain back parts of my personality. In Hell's Kitchen whoever exists on the other end keeps telling me if I pick New York I loose Fairfield, Connecticut but I can't hear this. They keep asking me what I want but I mock them and find that they eventually make me psychotic to get an answer. References like this are given by Hughes for me to remember what happened but feels like yesterday when the people on the other end used to blatantly acknowledge me. I'm going to leave best buy I need more medication I love you.
-Little Nemo
(christopher)
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on HBO
11/12/2011
black caitlin heart
The School of visual arts church of silver tiles day 383/8 james hughes days
Saturday, November 12, 2011
to the foresters/whoever helps me until I get the medication
please come directly to me and give me the medication. It takes far too long for me to find the medication and you know that I need the medication directly as you're on the other side of this. I was trapped for years without the medication and it takes far too long to panhandle for it, I know the truth about everything please help me directly/physically I have survived the most horrific ordeal through prison/torment and the torment of having to steal. You know where I am at all times, please help me.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
23
caitlin,
I have decided to replace my golden birthday with the wish to be known for life with the demand to marry you out of Little Nemo. I have no interest in anything else. This is what the # 23 now means.
Formerly this was my golden birthday which would affect the rest of my life, what I would be known for.
I've never believed in 16, 18, 21 none of these birthdays mattered. The golden birthday was the only birthday that mattered.
It means very little to me who is on the other side of the conversations I hold with people through me, it would be to say that my past mattered, that any of these people have anything to do with marrying you. None of these people have to do with becoming your husband, they have created false versions of you. There is a false version who creates a world of smoking fetish and demands to win, the sarah neufeld who was placed in my mind in architecture in helsinki, the symbol of my manipulation in hell's kitchen to go off my medication to become a better friend. I would rather have slit the throat of sarah o'donnahuge than have gone off my medication to become a better friend to others. There's no point, the only time I exist is on my medication. This is the reason I live in New York.
I came here to write about occupy wall street. I hate the homelessness that has been thrown upon me, I should be able to edit my footage, I should be able to create to log this event as a film school student, I should not be logging this through people who log my eyes or however it is they log what I do daily.
I should be there as myself, not as the fucking creature that I have become. I need $ on the train.
I'm almost at the point where I go with the cute girl to the studio, the people on the other end have a tendency to erase what I previously said, that everything must be destroyed wish for me to live in a child world. Through this nightmare I will marry you, I have decided to write everything from the perspective of it being 2006. Overwrite the project of the person who pretends to be you, I trust nothing anybody on the other end says about being you until I physically find you. This is my artwork, but the people on the other end want to control my art, and everything that I write. I shall write as myself, I shall focus on the symbol of the theosophy of you. You are all that matters.
At occupy wall street there is a harmony, a man tells me there's brownies. I hear the organizers speaking to this democratic looking man, there's something to write about now other than the trauma that has been created inside of my mind. I choose Brandon Flowers as my symbol to represent the exit of my mind.
I was with Parker Colt when I invented the word exit art, I went by this gallery when I was ridding of the Nicole Richie character, when these people would tell me they won because I would create the seizure artwork that I'm in now, the moveable sickness artwork of Little Nemo (christopher) but I chose to do this to marry you I just don't have enough medication to put everything together. This is my artwork not the artwork of the people on the other end I don't give a fuck who they are I simply refuse to allow Harvey Weinstein to be rewarded with being apart of the television station in the end, the others who pretend to be your friends I feel are trying to help me, they're people from high society, this is the sort of thing that I'm in. I have chosen James Hughes as my soul guide in all of this. I chant to Matt Johnson as I walk by the occupy wall street exterior, the dream of creating a television station in williamsburg brooklyn. This should have been domino, we should occupy the sugar factory (if they're not going to make this a tv station fuck the people who will invade).
What I say on the street cannot matter, this is somebody who wants to keep me sucked inside of my mind who claims to be you. I'm spreading the art slowly at occupy wall street.
I miss my dvx 100b. I love you.
I feel the people on the other end now use harvey weinstein's name as a symbol of keeping me inside of my mind. As long as I follow my demand to make everything subservient to you I can succeed at Hughes bringing the artwork together and with me finding people on the other end. I also believe I speak to the character of a smoking fetish woman who is not real. It cannot be this complex when I smoke a cigarette, things cannot be slowed to this level, there cannot be a person who tells me to sleep all the time, the forced sleep of the subway is not real. All of this needs to be expanded on.
I love you.
-Little Nemo
(christopher)
A caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
11/9/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 380/8 james hughes days
I have decided to replace my golden birthday with the wish to be known for life with the demand to marry you out of Little Nemo. I have no interest in anything else. This is what the # 23 now means.
Formerly this was my golden birthday which would affect the rest of my life, what I would be known for.
I've never believed in 16, 18, 21 none of these birthdays mattered. The golden birthday was the only birthday that mattered.
It means very little to me who is on the other side of the conversations I hold with people through me, it would be to say that my past mattered, that any of these people have anything to do with marrying you. None of these people have to do with becoming your husband, they have created false versions of you. There is a false version who creates a world of smoking fetish and demands to win, the sarah neufeld who was placed in my mind in architecture in helsinki, the symbol of my manipulation in hell's kitchen to go off my medication to become a better friend. I would rather have slit the throat of sarah o'donnahuge than have gone off my medication to become a better friend to others. There's no point, the only time I exist is on my medication. This is the reason I live in New York.
I came here to write about occupy wall street. I hate the homelessness that has been thrown upon me, I should be able to edit my footage, I should be able to create to log this event as a film school student, I should not be logging this through people who log my eyes or however it is they log what I do daily.
I should be there as myself, not as the fucking creature that I have become. I need $ on the train.
I'm almost at the point where I go with the cute girl to the studio, the people on the other end have a tendency to erase what I previously said, that everything must be destroyed wish for me to live in a child world. Through this nightmare I will marry you, I have decided to write everything from the perspective of it being 2006. Overwrite the project of the person who pretends to be you, I trust nothing anybody on the other end says about being you until I physically find you. This is my artwork, but the people on the other end want to control my art, and everything that I write. I shall write as myself, I shall focus on the symbol of the theosophy of you. You are all that matters.
At occupy wall street there is a harmony, a man tells me there's brownies. I hear the organizers speaking to this democratic looking man, there's something to write about now other than the trauma that has been created inside of my mind. I choose Brandon Flowers as my symbol to represent the exit of my mind.
I was with Parker Colt when I invented the word exit art, I went by this gallery when I was ridding of the Nicole Richie character, when these people would tell me they won because I would create the seizure artwork that I'm in now, the moveable sickness artwork of Little Nemo (christopher) but I chose to do this to marry you I just don't have enough medication to put everything together. This is my artwork not the artwork of the people on the other end I don't give a fuck who they are I simply refuse to allow Harvey Weinstein to be rewarded with being apart of the television station in the end, the others who pretend to be your friends I feel are trying to help me, they're people from high society, this is the sort of thing that I'm in. I have chosen James Hughes as my soul guide in all of this. I chant to Matt Johnson as I walk by the occupy wall street exterior, the dream of creating a television station in williamsburg brooklyn. This should have been domino, we should occupy the sugar factory (if they're not going to make this a tv station fuck the people who will invade).
What I say on the street cannot matter, this is somebody who wants to keep me sucked inside of my mind who claims to be you. I'm spreading the art slowly at occupy wall street.
I miss my dvx 100b. I love you.
I feel the people on the other end now use harvey weinstein's name as a symbol of keeping me inside of my mind. As long as I follow my demand to make everything subservient to you I can succeed at Hughes bringing the artwork together and with me finding people on the other end. I also believe I speak to the character of a smoking fetish woman who is not real. It cannot be this complex when I smoke a cigarette, things cannot be slowed to this level, there cannot be a person who tells me to sleep all the time, the forced sleep of the subway is not real. All of this needs to be expanded on.
I love you.
-Little Nemo
(christopher)
A caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
11/9/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 380/8 james hughes days
Friday, November 4, 2011
Morning in slumberland
Caitlin,
I'm quite content at occupywallstreet and I'm decently sure if I can figure the way to get to the other side we can create a channel in Williamsburg. Been trapped in this nightmare for a long time and I don't have enough medication to get the people off my eye who are causing the soundwaves of things like the cousins. I need to find adderall, the basis of this project is my add medication.
I want to bring back with me to Williamsburg all of occupywastreet, in limbo this is the set of liberal minded souls I was looking for to use the cash to create you a tv station named little nemo. Billions into protecting the new York liberal mind state against fox news. 69 fnord! Fnord! .... Heart
-Little Nemo
(Christopher)
A Caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
11/4/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 375/8 James Hughes days
Did you know in 2008 I was told i'd gain property of domino sugar/pfizer in Williamsburg, Brooklyn but ran out of medication and had no reconnection to the monican grid until 2009?
Love to all who help me
Little Nemo loves the Princess
I'm quite content at occupywallstreet and I'm decently sure if I can figure the way to get to the other side we can create a channel in Williamsburg. Been trapped in this nightmare for a long time and I don't have enough medication to get the people off my eye who are causing the soundwaves of things like the cousins. I need to find adderall, the basis of this project is my add medication.
I want to bring back with me to Williamsburg all of occupywastreet, in limbo this is the set of liberal minded souls I was looking for to use the cash to create you a tv station named little nemo. Billions into protecting the new York liberal mind state against fox news. 69 fnord! Fnord! .... Heart
-Little Nemo
(Christopher)
A Caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
11/4/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 375/8 James Hughes days
Did you know in 2008 I was told i'd gain property of domino sugar/pfizer in Williamsburg, Brooklyn but ran out of medication and had no reconnection to the monican grid until 2009?
Love to all who help me
Little Nemo loves the Princess
Thursday, November 3, 2011
I wrote on 8 before this. Please find somebody to give me adderall
Caitlin,
I have written to you for many years after smoking I decided it key to write to you. The people on the other end attack my mentality Harvey Weinstein attacks my mentality and attempts to create a wod where I have to surreneder to him, where I'm a child. At occupywallstreet I see hope for us to create a television station out of me being a hostage/being fucked by the thing that I'm currently in. Everyone at occupywallstreet would be down for creating this, I need the medication to get out of the psychological state of mind I'm placed in. I realized this inside of occupywallstreet. There's a form of unity and rally cry I feel would create a world where unity through this is possible. Harvey Weinstein fuck off I am going to imprson you. I don't have enough medication to get rid of this person at the moment. Jules lives with us, he's from rikers where Harvey Weinstein pretended to be the masons. Everyday Jules sat by me as I was forced to seizure and threatened to be sent to one main if anybody saw this (where I'm placed in an institution where I cannot be released because the thing I'm in has made me homeless and unable to be released. All of my thoughts were just paused. I need the medication so I can reach the end of little nemo. I need to get these people out of my body.
The pain of not having the ability to think or reach deep emotional thought. They force me to stare at the hands I'm forced from inside my mind to agree with them, I'm trying at the same time to find the place in my mind I'm at. Hughes uses Parker colt so I understand the woman appeal I'd be at. Someone from my real life memory of people who exist in reality, before people start speaking through my body all the time. Somebody with a v mask has a yoshi backpack, Hughes sent me a Mario as a lovenote one night. I believe when I wake up there's still a tv snow with mayor Michael bloomberg I'm on. I hope Hughes is fixing the amensia or I will have to do this when I get my mediction. There is no reason to live without this, especially when I know this will get these people out if me. Then I can get you the billions from my body. I love you.
-Little Nemo
(Christopher)
A Caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
11/4/2011
black Caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 374/8 James Hughes days
we will hire solely SVA
Caitlin let's create a tv station with everyone from occupywallstreet street
I have written to you for many years after smoking I decided it key to write to you. The people on the other end attack my mentality Harvey Weinstein attacks my mentality and attempts to create a wod where I have to surreneder to him, where I'm a child. At occupywallstreet I see hope for us to create a television station out of me being a hostage/being fucked by the thing that I'm currently in. Everyone at occupywallstreet would be down for creating this, I need the medication to get out of the psychological state of mind I'm placed in. I realized this inside of occupywallstreet. There's a form of unity and rally cry I feel would create a world where unity through this is possible. Harvey Weinstein fuck off I am going to imprson you. I don't have enough medication to get rid of this person at the moment. Jules lives with us, he's from rikers where Harvey Weinstein pretended to be the masons. Everyday Jules sat by me as I was forced to seizure and threatened to be sent to one main if anybody saw this (where I'm placed in an institution where I cannot be released because the thing I'm in has made me homeless and unable to be released. All of my thoughts were just paused. I need the medication so I can reach the end of little nemo. I need to get these people out of my body.
The pain of not having the ability to think or reach deep emotional thought. They force me to stare at the hands I'm forced from inside my mind to agree with them, I'm trying at the same time to find the place in my mind I'm at. Hughes uses Parker colt so I understand the woman appeal I'd be at. Someone from my real life memory of people who exist in reality, before people start speaking through my body all the time. Somebody with a v mask has a yoshi backpack, Hughes sent me a Mario as a lovenote one night. I believe when I wake up there's still a tv snow with mayor Michael bloomberg I'm on. I hope Hughes is fixing the amensia or I will have to do this when I get my mediction. There is no reason to live without this, especially when I know this will get these people out if me. Then I can get you the billions from my body. I love you.
-Little Nemo
(Christopher)
A Caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
11/4/2011
black Caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 374/8 James Hughes days
we will hire solely SVA
Caitlin let's create a tv station with everyone from occupywallstreet street
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