anna gripentrog:
I thought of this last night. It's been many years since I've been trapped in this project. The people on the other end keep erasing my thoughts. I listen to the killers in the apple store and it's almost worthless where they have me psychologically to write. I'll do this another day, it was worth mentioning but not doing. Not where they have me. 

month of may. need medication + $. Thank you for reading the attempt to create a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn out of occupy wall street and the economy from the illumanti. I need somebody from the project to come and help or I will be placed to sleep without my medication for 12 hours a day until I find the medication this is when I write on caitlinrodriguezhusbandatoccupywallst and do not/cannot count the days moralistic and psychologically

caitlin,
I keep writing in this blog because it's the only one whoever reads this reads. The people on the other end are trying to control my writing and whoever claims to be james hughes told me to write in this one I e-mailed adbusters I need to find someone who knows about conspiracies whoever is in me erases my thoughts daily I don't have my medication or enough to get them out I'm too down in the system that I live in to get them out I need a human ego to get rid of them I have to fear a jail record and am threatened daily. I created a flirtation with a girl on the other end which has become something like my childhood relationship with vada from "my girl" but more of a hostage Patty Hearst way. James Hughes created two systems off the focus on my medication but "lucifer" has no problem getting $.
I need somebody to find out who runs this project or somebody to blatantly come up to me and give me the medication and if possibly a fucking iPod so I can get these people out of me.
James Hughes (I believe) or the person I've named Phi Delta Thai (1 person) <- after the frat matthew mahabadi was in, in the University of Hartford (who may have been involved in this project/I'm pretty sure was via premium mobile/real paris hilton in 2009) places messages in the killers "spaceman" to help me understand how strong I'm doing in the radio city religion (*surviving inside this game in homeless and panhandling/occupying -> the 6th burrough in "extremely loud & incredibly close"; the only way to make it between event to event/figure out how to get a job in my world/make it to coke parties to promote the tv station through my eyes <-which is reality, until I can get to the other side, which is also life <-this is a level of command, a note to myself)
-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin Rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/31/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 466/8 james hughes days

i'm told harvey weinstein at random is involved in this project not because he is but because it's a threat also my memory is erased to create little nemo (occupy wall street/christianity) I don't have an iPod to sing to caitlin daily at 5am, which is the time I previously made newspapers/pamphlets in penn station/williamsburg, brooklyn when I was told a tv show was filmed called "silver tiles" to promote the tv station's creation/to help me get out of this project which at the time I didn't understand meant keeping my psychological ego together/finding me the medication and beating homelessness to bring the project's $ to the selected god: caitlin rodriguez since "the month of may" 2011.
At this time I get out harvey and bob weinstein. They are also taken off the project (or whoever was digitally/infa red on my eye placing thoughts/perceptions into me)
I am able to interact with the actual project via my medication, I have an ipod/ipad at this point.
With cigarettes/$/focus I get people out, I fail purposely to get them out mostly in rounds outside starbucks because of a false caitlin who I believe I call "premium mobile" and am trying to marry. This is partially james hughes creation. Also something i see appropriate since she has taken your place in controlling the project as god, or at least your role while james organizes everything.
I believe at this time Richard Hilton plays your father.

Whoever reads this I am out of $ in this project and insurance from s.v.a. and need somebody to bring me my medication/I do not understand how to sign up for medicaid as I have never been homeless and have always considered being associated to this insulting as I am forced into this situation (and do not consider myself homeless but unpaid in this project)

west park church. repeat pattern. attacks on self confidence/ability to grow thoughts

caitlin,
the spokes council decided west park church should not exist but this fucks me because I have people speaking through me threatening my ability to get my medication somewhere on their computer their making it so my thoughts won't grow and using smells to move through my mind, entering the part of the eye that controls faith and memory today's argument is over weather or not I do what Hughes said, to leave this fucking place on the upper west side I use the internet on but I rarely get the ability to try and gain back mental facilities. It's far too unfair of a game and the only reason the repeat pattern has any form of fairness is because of what James Hughes built. I have to fight homelessness or people enter my body when I go too long without showering.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

13 is not the # I was looking for from the bible

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/30/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 463/8 james hughes days

end of west park church w/Occupy wall street

caitlin,
I liked sleeping in a bed for a period of time or having the west park church to use as a place to live and attempt to get people out of me. I can't get "mrs. robinson" out right now but she seems to be at the same place and space that I'm in she's probably in the same place as god girl. I have very little of my intellect accessible I'm afraid if I think of the picture of you caitlin this changes someone else in/erases my thoughts and my attempt to reach out to you/the world through writing to you.
There's depth in the oddity of this and I had this argument with somebody on the other end over clothing or emotional depth, somebody is capping my emotional depth. There's this smell that I keep existing in where I have to create a symbol and then stick to it I get agitated and into a hateful state and decide I'm going to go with it just because, but I'm not supposed to there's no emotion in it and I physically shake in that mind state but I tell myself that I'm going to accomplish everything a person does, take over occupy wall street, blog, film a tv show. I need to avoid sleeping to panhandle to get an iPod which is gone since it was stolen at staten island ferry when zuccatti park was still inhabited (and the messages sent leave me to believe that james hughes warned me through symbols to never speak to anyone associated to harvey weinstein).
I can't prove that there's any association to harvey weinstein, I've never met him and always expected him to not acknowledge that this is happening, the journey of figuring out the address to this project and the way out involves directly acknowledging who I know for a fact speaks through my body/has communicated to me in my sleep/meditation. My most important messages at this point come to me in my attempts to get people out of me, although I fail to get out the impressions they build into me I get messages/thoughts which I usually don't get with amnesia erasing my thoughts every couple of seconds.
There was a person built who lives/loves west park church and is attached to that place but this will weaken me to be addicted to this when I have to panhandle/find cash for an iPod or I can't interact/heal myself/I need a camera. I need someone to research this project and find who runs this project I thought earlier today that if somebody researched my credit rating once there was these people who used my social when I purchased a dvx and I thought this has to be something like this for how illegal this is and the fact that they came into my apartment in hell's kitchen/used to speak to me directly (and were next door/responded in bangs to what I'd say to them inside my mind).

I don't know how conspiracy theorists would find this sort of information but I need whoever would do this  to research any contract christopher mastronardi signed/any affiliation to this sort of technology to AMORC.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/29/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 462/8 james hughes days 

art father

caitlin
I found that gunnar agerholm was dead in 2011. Following this I vowed to destroy harvey weinstein, the trauma that this man was dead. I'd somewhat like to apologize for mark agerholm for being a bad friend. And hope to make them wealthy in the future.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/28/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 460/8 james hughes days 

I figured out the key to short-term success
just tell everyone that you're clinically depressed.
make a list of all the people that you've wronged.
don't ever call them back, but use them in a song
and if you're lucky enough to have a parent pass away,
pretend it broke your heart, but never go to their grave.

and it goes 1, 2, 3, easy as 1, 2, 3.
it goes 1, 2, 3, let's all exploit our misery.

i figured out a way to twist reality,
just take a ton of drugs and never go to sleep.
re-rent the saddest movie that you've ever seen.
fill your room with TV sets and put it on repeat.
push all your friends away with the cool things that you said.
if you need company, you got the voices in your head.

and it goes 1, 2, 3, easy as 1, 2, 3.
it goes 1, 2, 3, let's all exploit our misery.

so stay down on yourself
and if you feel a glimpse of hope,
you gotta choke it out before it grows.
you're the only one that really counts.
stuck dollar bills inside your ears
and let the rest of them work it out.

and it goes 1, 2, 3, easy as 1, 2, 3.
it goes 1, 2, 3, let's all exploit our misery.

right now

i don't like the democrat guy who keeps labeling everything and playing the squealer program/the fake anniversary

caitlin,

i don't like that the people on the other end are fucking with the anniversary or trying to make a consistent plot line with I talk to you. I then sing to the demons on the other end because they've kept me trapped in this thing for years to the heart is a lonely hunter, to you and the picture of your friends who live down the street it's another moment like the month of may in fairfield, connecticut when I decide you will be god of these people and own the tv station they will work at in williamsburg. Even hughes.
Earlier in the day I pay tribute to james hughes who invented a system/machine where a new person can be built/I can be brought back to my focus in 8th grade (Little Nemo:exodus) with music/levels of the mind. We should own domino sugar, I was going to walk around and give a speech to the people on the other end as I normally do but they made me the other version of me. 

-little nemo 

(christopher) 

apart of occupy wall street 

a caitlin rodriguez production 

little nemo on hbo 

1/28/2012 

black caitlin heart 

the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 460/8 james hughes days 

gateway to hell in meditation since 1991

caitlin,
I decide to link people to the astral plane of hell, I want people to sell their souls and I want you to get the energy and the credit. If you meditate you'll find an astral realm to hell. All of the energy of anyone who sells their soul is to go to caitlin rodriguez.
This was from childhood.

Caitlin Rodriguez is GOD

-little nemo
(christopher)

*haven't reached higher levels but having a lot of fun with my religion of caitlin rodriguez

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/28/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 460/8 james hughes days 

hughes dimension on my eye

(dimension seems to be a series of abilities)
the focus of james hughes/whoever claims to be this person has created the only stable world/world able to survive the homelessness/pretend to be a spiritual avatar to make it through the rest of the situations/emotions thrown into me until I'm able to get the medication/take care of me through situations that make me cry and allow for any circumstance to happen to me/whoever is james hughes thank you for creating a world based off my dorm/reality when this started

-little nemo
(christopher)

[this person also set the project at a reset point on north 4th street]
[although this may have been a metaphor for other levels I've considered this a williamsburg, brooklyn project despite wherever my body goes: with the dream of a tv station and creating a permanent art scene out of this station since 2008/named the scene "the land of wonderful dreams"]

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/27/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 459/8 james hughes days 

james hughes

hughes:
I normally have to think of your picture to understand a person. When I run out of the medication the people on the other end make it immensely hard to find. I'm confused in the system and hope I've been speaking to you, I throw into the trash my art as a call for help which women I love invented, the people on the other end used to pretend I speak to different people when I enter different areas of town. I need someone from the project to come directly to me. I tried contacting adbusters I'm hoping Kaelle Lasn or somebody like that would know the address/who runs this project. Please help me, the symbols become confusing when love/hate symbols are chosen, I just can't have pearl/democrat/anyone put me to sleep anymore when it takes too long to get the $ let alone try to make it to shows/use this to advertise to create a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn.
I hope at least on some level I'm speaking to you.
I love you guy.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/27/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 459/8 james hughes days

*viewer: click on the domino sugar refinery to see my music videos/what I look like.
I have been trying to use this project I'm trapped in and the $ from it to create a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn to name "little nemo" since 2008 when I graduated S.V.A. while still apart of this project.
But I ran out of student loan $/aetna chickering for the medication the project is based on. 

To adbusters/Kaelle Lasn

It's customary I write to caitlin, I'm writing directly to you because I just e-mailed you. I'm hoping that you will directly contact me at this blog or find me at occupy wall street or e-mail me at my sva address. Everything I say is true, the project promised alot of $ but requires me to reach a place of freedom within my mind I haven't felt since 2007 since they manipulated me into an institution. I'm hoping through this letter and reading my blog you can find who runs the project/that they will contact you directly. I keep running out of $/they will not pay me/I ran out of insurance for the medication that is the basis of the project. I live at occupy wall street.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

(if you are from adbusters please click on my profile and read my other blogs, these include links to my lulu novels/are apart of the project and my attempts to write for help. When I run out of my medication I write on caitlinrodriguezhusband) 

low level still at place where seizure makes me sweat still at 10 need actual medication

caitlin,
no time to get them out of my body. I decide that my fliration with queen on the other side feels to good to bother to get them out of my body and that I love the person who taught me to get make up at sephora. This is what happens in west park church and west park church is about over leaving me soon to seizure through the subway until I decide to destroy the world that involves the created emotions and get to the higher level.
Which always involves seizure/somebody on the other end tries to make all of the emotions and what I gain of my mind consistent but this never really matters.

-little nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/27/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 459/8 james hughes days

Lowest level. Jail threat in programming warned by James Hughes. Trying to overwrite Harvey weinsteins name but it appears James is using the military tesla technology speaking through me runs on

Caitlin,
Don't have time to get seizure out of me, an infa red light is on my eye. I don't know who is on the other end I can't remember this primary information (my worst fear) happened to enter amnesia in 2007. Then I continued my thesis, this created my artwork with her and I believe James, the concept of the channel the dream of marriage to you. I pray James Hughes can save me.

-Little Nemo
(Christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/25/2012
Black Caitlin heart
The school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 457/8 James Hughes days

the lowest level with the sound waves and everyone still in me/ignoring this through 2008 b/c I preferred my thesis and sva over whatever the fuck this project is

caitlin:

this is the lowest level. You can glide through life but I do not hold the mental facilities of memories/I do not hold the ability to control my body/I do not have the ability to poof people out of my body and require more medication for this. This song is literally my journey through my 2008 year, I never got any of the people who are in me out of me.

the terrible thing about hell
is that when you're there you can't even tell 
as you move through this life you love so 
you could be there and not even know 
but you say so what I'm doing just fine 
the irony is it's all in your mind 
and that's why hell is so vicious and cruel 
but you'll just go on an oblivious fool 


I ran out of $/I ran out of insurance/please whoever runs this project please fucking give me $ or let me out of this project. Whoever signed christopher mastronardi up for this please let him out of this.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/25/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 457/8 james hughes days

update [format of this blog now focused on my interaction with the people on my eye]

caitlin,
don't have time to get anyone out of my body. without an iPod. Still on the base level, layers of others perceptions my flirtation and marriage purposal to 10019 and flirtation with dina or "christie cummings"/her guide to surviving hell is still on my eye/everything built on bottom of eye for little/sexual fetish+mass focus built into sexuality portion by day "god/you" started this where all of my good emotions are. No time to fix this. Amensia still consumes me/others enter me when I speak and switch thoughts/annoying sound somewhat in music/thoughts frozen/glued/little of me exists at 30.  seizure smell at high level

-little nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/25/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 457/8 james hughes days 

caitlin,
I'm at the lowest psychological level and I don't have medication to get to the higher levels. I just need to generate thoughts and the project keeps erasing my thoughts, I don't have $ or a credit rating or a credit score the basis of the project is my medication and mind but I don't have the time to figure out how in my mind to get to the higher levels and I can't beat the places in west end park church I shouldn't have this problem on my medication the thoughts shouldn't cause emotions to pause there are all these people who block and hide the emotions and parts of my mind which they want me to forget, what my real mental status was on my medication and my genius is actual, real. Whoever is speaking to me is now from the lower mental plane/speaks to me on the lower mental plane I don't know who the person I named Chloe Sebvigny is today but she reminds me of things that happened that I forget in the amnesia they've given me that I dreamed of Sarah Neufeld breaking into my [I let Chloe Sevigny break into my dorm room at this point but this feature/concept is not turned on]

west end park church = my picture with michael moore but I'm too afraid of people knowing who I am to do this somebody just told me this I have amnesia but the people on the bottom are helping me

the project went differently than it was supposed to I suppose I was supposed to know what I'm talking about in 2007 but right now I still think it's 2007

all of these blogs are supposed to represent my way back to reality

they pause my thoughts when I have a plan to figure out the messages to me that they leave in my blogs that require my medication and deciphering what i'm being told like the bible code in my universe

I need symbols simple symbols that I can live by when somebody pauses my thoughts

the goal is to earn/to create/to gain media on the internet
this is the goal of "little nemo on hbo"
to create the hipster king
out of the body of christopher mastronardi

i'm not supposed to label
?
i'm not supposed to name
?
i'm going to create little nemo (christianity) now
because as little nemo (christopher) i'm to at all times: live and serve you. Live with the belief that I've sold my human soul to you. Sing to you every morning (as a tribute to caitlin rodriguez, princess caitlin, the hipster queen of williamsburg, brooklyn)
I create formulas in crosses as base symbols that create realms/perceptions and worlds when James Hughes chooses to do this.

I'll write what the demons say/respond to them in this blog
coldplay clocks

there's an infa red light all I have to do is focus and with emotion I can get rid of the fucking thing on my eye that allows a high pitch sound wave to day and night broadcast an irritant sound into my mind
all it requires is adderall and music/emotion there are higher levels in this there are levels when the people speak directly into me somebody on their computer somewhere will not come to me amnesia erases the fact that I can do this daily the people on the other end log this to create a paused thought man/to save some portion of me when I run out of my medication I know all of this but all they have to do is come and give me my medication and then I'm fine I can interact with this fucking project but they don't

there's $ in this billions in the end we're going to turn into a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn

-little nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/24/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 456/8 james hughes days 

Caitlin,
20 mg is still nốt Mỹ Real prescription. After i stay úp For 24 hours i have a little bit moẻ ôf Mỹ personality in me. Everything I write is associated to somebody on the other end I just fucking want Harvey weinsteins name to go away, I want somebody to tell me who runs this system/program I'm in I don't want to have to do the meditation/panhandle for an iPod. I don't know what to do about this woman who tells me she's bunny Caldwell from cruel intentions and she wants to fuck me/rebuild me as a man, she has the power to reverse sleep, she tells me really sexy shit it's like Jessie in rock and roll high school fucking doctor Vadar (which would be really sexy and could have saved Corey Feldman's career, who I additionally love and wonder if he was ever involved in this since I watched the bikini bandits daily in bushwick ave in 08 when one of the people is next door. I would have been the young republicans in this film and I keep remembering Whitney they keep erasing my thoughts and the girl on the other end sends me this MSG in prison they keep erasing my thoughts and I need an iPod/my meds/meditation to gather thoughts. The glasses I wear represent deciding I'm republican I'll be Caitlin-republican and create you a tv station despite amnesia and the fact that I'm not in a tv show but a reality perception project. I swear to fuck all of this is true I wouldn't have problems if my fucking insurance didn't run out and my prescript didn't go from 20 - $400. I am bob from this film I want the fucking girl who cums to her stock portfolio but these are symbols that my mind is working that I didn't run out of my medication and get turned into a child democrat as a safety precaution for me to panhandle on days I don't count. Thoughts can be moved but I don't count days without meds. It's snowing in manhattan. I once named this slumberland from the comic. I love you.

-Little Nemo
(Christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/21/2012
Black Caitlin heart
The school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 453/8 James Hughes days

8 is the number of cocaine at Brooklyn parties James Hughes attends in the memory of a boy who doesn't believe in the human soul but lives in the thought diagram esoteric religion of NYC

please message me if you know who runs the project I'm in
[there is supposed to be a level where I am paid for the project I am in/supplied with $]

I will be a professor when I'm free. I started chaos magic round with princess zero @ tekserve.

caitlin rodriguez (of williamsburg, brooklyn),

I am the unfinished sculpture I am The Monument to the Third International I am kicked out of S.V.A. because I used my thesis year as a television show to make you my girlfriend. I was lied to and never paid.

Everything I write at this point is somebody inside of me attempting to take control or get credit for what I write today. I am cursed by the religion of childhood I am cursed by symbolism I am cursed by being trapped in hell.

Each thing I write is somebody fighting to control what gets written. Their attempt to infiltrate and sicken my blogs with the same thing they did to my physical artwork. Everything I write it somebody else until I get them out of me.

I am the story of the ghost (of our fair city). In childhood I studied esoterics, symbols, the affects of spirituality in the human world. I am the curse of this earth, the word little nemo will forever echo in man's mind, steal their spirituality from them take from them the belief in soul.

I will use everything I know to make this real. Whoever found me and decided to keep me trapped in this hell likes this childhood association/the belief that there can be different versions of me.

When I escape this hell I will corrupt every human soul with every method I know in the human mind I will take their souls and energy from them and deliver them to you. This is my revenge on this world which I hate for taking me from my school and from my legal status for attempting to overtake my project and for keeping people on the other end of the project who attempt to speak to me as a child.

I promise the world this and you.

In addition whatever project I'm in believes I'm in a ship when I discover something I find disdain or hate for the reality I live in the project searches out the thought/everything must be a good thing. The immediate current threat is "then we all serve weinstein" the attempt on the other end to create a world where harvey weinstein is associated.

Eventually all of these people have to be defeated and taken out of me. This is a pivotal revelation, I dubbed the S.V.A. theatre with a 40 in your name. I am still trapped in the same hell 4 years later.

I love you.

fuck everyone but caitlin rodriguez
adderall xr
black caitlin heart
caitlin loves me

-little nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days 

magick hell

caitlin,
I create a ceremony to take control from the people on the other end. My hatrid for my past and my hate of all memories I had of childhood which they trap me in from constant reference I create a ceremony out of this. I started this at saint paul/saint andrew's. James Hughes wants me to mention my dick in a black mirror music video. I need a camcorder but nobody will give me a job in film editing and nobody will pay me/let me out of this fucking project so I have to panhandle for my camera. I'll have to panhandle for a dvx. I hate this planet. I use my religion the theosophy of caitlin to take control. There is nothing I hate more than my past.
A guy named karl teaches me how to get shit in nyc while stuck in this shit.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days

people who tried to save me thus far. Richard Hilton [who is literally richard hilton, maybe the guy republican], PDT [under the title bones+getting the medication], James Hughes, me, princess zero [in all ways of undoing the name of harvey weinstein, inevitably I become josh weinstein of williamsburg, brooklyn]

caitlin,
I don't know much about the year 2012. I'm a time capsule of the concept of paris hilton trapped in time clubbing in williamsburg, brooklyn. Is the economy bad? Are people sad? Are their spirits broken? Is there such a thing as a national mentality anymore? I no longer know or understand this. Is the president Democrat or is he a representation of paris hilton on nylon magazine and all that matters is fashion; that if wealthy girls who say hot from L.A. continously promote you anyone can become the president, this is the only way to create black J.F.K. I don't care about the political party I care about recreating the 90s where the news is about hillary clinton's haircut. I am a child of capitalism as a religion in this hell that I believe in George H.Walker Bush's new world order, then clinton renames this NATO. This is what my bill clinton button means, capitalism. There is nothing without wall street.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days

I have been trapped in my hell for many years. At one point richard hilton attempts to build me out of my creative world which gets invented off my medication. The key is to keep me properly medicated so I don't get lost in new york city. At some point I have to destroy the hands, what they build, on the other hand they now represent Live Astro on grand street in williamsburg, brooklyn; hip hop fashion in brooklyn.
The only thing is the hands can pull this off. The other thing is they'll reappear after I destroy them, except they slowly fill my world until I with amensia don't remember the blatent instructions on returning to the real world that princess zero keeps telling me. This is what happens everytime and the reason it's 2012.
In 2006 James evolved my mind, I purchased every wealth and sex talisman on the internet.
Then I finished the novel Fairfield, Connecticut and whoever was on the other end attacked my mind.
This is one level one perception of reality. I never complete the levels.
Gunnar is now bad.
Now that I understand this I have completed the seizure level of little nemo (christopher)

note to self: 
move up levels at occupy wall street. Use rage against the machine lyrics. Get out of little nemo.  Become republican.

I am republican this is my evolution

caitlin,
there is nothing I hate more than the power. All who live around me each person I meet I document to shit on there is no point in creating my future career without shitting on the poor. I call this republican rage against the machine.

-little nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days

james hughes is jesus christ

caitlin rodriguez (the princess of little nemo <- from williamsburg, brooklyn/pratt),
"hello?"
"Hello, mother leopard. I have your cub. You must protect her, but that will be expensive. 10,000 colon notes, wrapped in brown paper. Midnight, behind the box. I'll be the hyena, you'll see."

Ashley Consiglio leaves this on a voice mail to hughes in 2006 and I live off this moment
Hughes watches "the warriors" with sarah ritch in 2007

I stop making music videos on youtube on his birthday. My profile stands as a testament to James Hughes, that I'm his science/art project trapped in time. It gives me this great hope in things being interconnected.

I love you caitlin.

If there was a christ of art, it'd be James Hughes.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

*base of artwork

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin rodriguez Production
little nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days


graffiti art keeps me alive psychologically. you'll see this art in the subway as I panhandle.
I demand the tv station we create out of this be in williamsburg as it's a ground for graffiti art.
and I occupied mollusk surf shop for many years as I searched for the medication and my way out of the "harvey weinstein/michael bloomberg" world lie

this is christopher mastronardi

black wave/bad vibrations

caitlin,
I don't understand why the people on the other end made me afraid of others reading my blog knowing that I've been to prison or make me afraid of writing and then ask me to overcome this, what was the point in creating a fear function to protect me if they want me to overcome this. It no longer makes sense, to directly associate this to the evil enemy, the "harvey weinstein" I no longer believe was the man harvey weinstein and if it was he really seems to have little to do with the actual project, his name seems to stall point the project in artwork created out of a seizure as I search for clothing, a party and my medication. He also seems to feed my back my own ideas for artwork and prolong the first portion of the project. 
I watch my music video of my lifetime trapped in a bottle. In the seizure of symbols I curse the human race with the word "little nemo" and will use all spirituality to create you a church, to curse all souls born to this earth.
For what has been done to me I spit misery back into the world. I am the villian of the earth, may suffering be born with my return to humanity.
Fuck all of humanity.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days

gunnar cancer sleep

wasn't freed after I created a hvx tape about 1999 and no doubt.
Have to keep symbols of hate on my artwork and keep it together accomplish all of my daily missions.
This is what defeats the democrat guy.
The guy who believes good exists inside my mind, who wants to be an element of this.
Purpose created.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days

eminem will lead me out of this shit (as a psychological muse against people who want to insert child emotions to control me)

A letter to caitlin rodriguez of williamsburg brooklyn who will own the tv station little nemo, the symbol and word of which condemns all of man,
I overtake the system that I live in. I use the scramble for my own. My hatrid of the past is represented by gunnar agerholm I go to war with everyone on the other side I live by my hate all are republican I am republican
my hatrid for the world of little leads me to the conclusion that I must abide by my own world and I must create my own outside everyone's version of artwork I must control this system my hatrid of humanity must guide me I must have something that is me separate from the others I will not have everything I say controlled by people I will not have my childhood in connecticut guide each and every thing I do fuck every childhood references fuck everything that happened before I moved to n.y.c. fuck the past fuck all memories
everything before 2004 is shit

This is another message where the woman I'm trying to marry me threatens me to overtake the system which others have invented, in one version they scramble my words in another version there is a small child in me who is affected by everything that happens they attempt to keep me in a world of childhood
there is nothing I hate more in my artwork and life than childhood.
I create a system that I created in meditation that 23 times I move around my hand thinking of gunnar's cancer and the past the death of this man as my power my disdain for the past as my power that this would be the soul of eminem this would be my way to use my past in art and to represent boilerroom and greed and a world a real world not a world where "good and evil" are decided by people who hold me hostage in my mind and want to believe there's a world or a person who believes in shit like this.

There is nothing I hate more than the past.

I love you.

I will create a religion that brings the soul energy of the world to you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)



Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/17/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 449/8 james hughes days

all characters from the world and memory of little will die. This is my first warning before I murder this in the future to the other people on the other end of the project.

caitlin,
I cannot have people on the other end morph every word I say and control everything from their character.
I will not have the world of little control my real writing. M83 means my medication.
I will not allow the characters of everyone on the other end to own everything I write.
I will stop making art over this conclusion the art of the others and the world of little must die.
I have to destroy the pearl forester fetish emotion I will not allow others to control my world.
I will not allow the association of childhood or the time period that the others have chosen to control my writing. Whoever created this system looses to little nemo.
This is where I'm currently at.

Hurry up, we're dreaming.

The past is not invited.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/16/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 448/8 james hughes days 

instructions are in a demon book. this is not a metaphor but an explanation for the system i'm in. the human soul is mind/intention/a body of thoughts: in my case this would be the little nemos and their protocols

caitlin,
creating structure and modes in my hell is inspired by james hughes.
The people on the other end used to accredit this to harvey weinstein
only hughes would show me ahead of time amnesia and the light that reads my thoughts and controls my body can create something and be used to help me/look out for me (by the williamsburg bridge)
I would never accredit somebody I never knew, lived with or met with the $/dream of a williamsburg, brooklyn tv station.
The people on the other end, pearl forester, keeps trying to break down any forms of modes, the inspiration to create modes is inspired by james hughes who deep down I believe truly believed in art.
I no longer believe in spirituality but this is because if there's a god this couldn't happen.
This was important to say, because I used to create art because I was told I'd be freed from this if I made art day and night and beat an hbo game.
But the hipster king is the title of actualization that these people are looking for whoever the fuck they are not the hbo system they told me existed in the game, this is based on my point system/ameythest princess system of points/what creates a digital necklace. But the key is fashion. I need a camera to take pictures of myself.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5-yKhDd64s

I take advice from eminem lyrics to get through the day, I would never have done this before they did this to me but this makes sense in my hell.

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little nemo on hbo
1/16/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 448/8 james hughes days 

dorm room

caitlin,
I hate everyone on the other side I will not allow others to control me I will not play a game I will not allow a world to exist where I get told where to make my artwork or what matters on my end. I will not be told about my symbols. I now sell out the # 23. I no longer believe in this as my spiritual number nothing that I believed in, in the esoteric matters. I create my dorm room mode to block others out of me nothing I say during this time counts I do not count anything said I had my dorm room as my personal space where I listen to the arcade fire I will have personal space in my hell.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/16/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 448/8 james hughes days

caitlin,
I cannot face that I live in this reality, the internal thoughts are paused and I cannot face that I exist in a world where apart of my religion/reality is I have to purpose to you and serve you. My indigo beliefs amount to creating you a tv station and bringing the fortune of pandora's box to you.
I cannot face that I've ever seen riker's island or that this project would allow anything like this to happen to me, this is why James Hughes has to protect me the people on the other end don't really give a fuck they seem to only care about what's inside of my mind and whenever my mind reaches the exit reality button.

(hipster king) 

want life back/control

caitlin,
my body goes on pause. I have problems moving. I'm having an argument with the people on the other end again somebody has a jpg of my biological father smoking I'm to use images of rape to keep control I attempt to keep control the people on the other end have arguments with me I fight to keep a form of me a form of control.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/16/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 448/8 james hughes days 

hands. lots of hands everywhere

caitlin,
It seems pearl forester helps me if I tell her she wins or tell her that she rules. whoever this woman is she simply wants me to tell her that she succeeds over me and then she'll leave me the fuck alone.
I simply have to tell her that she consumes all of my thoughts it's okay she mimics my upcoming thoughts and I succeed in life because of her and then she'll go away. Not a bad deal she leaves me alone I get through the day she creates an alternate version of what I say and feels she's succeeded over me or has recreated a man either way this person then leaves me alone. This is probably the command of pearl forester as girl teaches me.

-little nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/14/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 446/8 james hughes days 

another update. happy civil union. still in this fucking thing.

the shins -> represent the moments in derby, ct when I'm amongst nobody and I'm thinking of you.
I need to move to n.y.c. to make it to the school of visual arts.
Whoever is on the other end in this project cannot have me/my personal religion of you/they cannot have my past life or the symbols of the memories I had.

I have to murder these memories in some ceremony to control my world. The soft loving emotion of sleeping at the west end church has to meet the psychotic emotion of the seizure. I could do this if they didn't make the meditation so fucking difficult (or place in the anger demands that the artwork off the medication will count)

this would all go quicker if they'd stop putting me to sleep.

somebody woke me up three times last night but I didn't want to leave the church, it's rare I want to leave a place I love this much James Hughes placed van halen on his Facebook I'm being told to do this david lee roth seizure thing I'm working with these demon people on the other end who won't come to me but who help me and the one who explained to me how to get back to the real world/what I do wrong every time.
The only ting that's me at this point is the demand that everything that connects to the real world is you, the demons explain to me how to interact with occupy wall street being homeless and this creature and that I need to panhandle to cell phones/items to assist in the occupation to later create a following to later create a tv station out of occupy wall street. I'm wearing a suit because it's this tribute to the demon guy on the other end who plays jason slocumb although this was supposed to be a reference to the last cigarette and the relationship I tried to create with you when I sometimes thought it was you or wanted to pretend girl was you, I think he's telling me I'm falling apart in an art game where I'm supposed to be igby slocumb at occupy wall street until I figure out how to become ollie slocumb.
I don't think there's really a separate way out of this thing other than what's been developed.
All I know is if I demand everything is under your creation/you own the tv station out of this everything will be okay the day is okay it's alright that people are putting me to sleep and attempting to alter the base of my focus so I can't get the sound wave out that currently tells me that "harvey weinstein company" which used to say "john blarney" and "bum bum christie cummings" and at one point "the most famous woman paris hilton"

i'm many levels down in this indigo game. I invented paris france as a place to move to control the game on my end to push the point that I'm going to create a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn. this should have been domino or pfizer. I also believe this will never end.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/14/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 446/8 james hughes days

I don't understand the system that I'm in. I live in a world where at the end I have to marry you or I can't really handle what has been done to me. I purpose to the girl on the other end who has played the role of you but internally in my world there has to be an end with marrying you. Today on the train after I'm hit with the sleep thing that causes me to sleep for days I figure out that wherever this person is inside of me they're at some sleep point where I need to invent a place where I move to when all of this is over, this protects internally my dream of creating a tv station which you own, this protects n.y.c. to have a world where at the end I move to somewhere that is not this city. This protects the fact that the person on the other end has invented contradictions in my logic, that my childhood father can be used against me or tears/good emotions can be used against me. I have to shit on this man in order to be able to wake up, the world that they've invented or "little" has good/evil functions, good intentions lead to sleeping and happy emotions evil intentions lead to surviving, stealing, whatever must be done. Leads to a personal wall which the girl on the other end explained to me. I would have written in little nemo (occupy) but am not at a point of enough medication to be involved with the occupation properly. And you're in a civil union, I presume at this point you must know that I exist and that I'm trying to create a tv station in your name/the memory of knowing you for five seconds reminds me of how I'm being fucked in this project that's something like hell. I can't help but seizure which makes others think that I'm ill and don't have an iPod to get these people out of my body, the fucking smell they create torments me and in the background to threatens to harm my world they say harvey weinsteins name. I love you wherever you are in Brooklyn, I know for many years you probably didn't know about this happening but presume (her name today being girl) that you know about this because she told you. You'll own the creation of this project or if you want the tv station if this gets created. There is no end to this project and no time limit I have to figure my way out and my only guide on this mission is my jesus christ; James Hughes, who's name I believe in to show me the way back to reality and out of this hell and to negotiate with whoever is on the other end to free me from this thing in some amount of time that seems logical or at least to show me places that I'll love/I hover around occupy wall street because I love them and it's been years since I had good looking people near me.
I know I have to panhandle for cash, but then I remembered when I was sleeping that I was forced to sleep on trains for a long time and nobody is ever coming to get me despite anything I say. I pray to you as god because the original god was never real but your name as god protects me and brings me towards people again. I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/14/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 446/8 james hughes days 

you say party! we say die!

caitlin,
everything I live through is literally the inspiration of twin peaks, I'm this kid that these fucking people found and decided to trap me in my mind and in time. There's a guy on the other end who wants to trap me inside my mind because I was a democrat in 2006 they won't let me go and don't care about days or nights, all of my visualaxis vlog shows from 2008 represent how I'm trapped in time, I just want to party/fuck/live in williamsburg, brooklyn I'm trying to restore this artwork/the symbolism of what this is with a girl I named goddess today who's been speaking to me and used to live next door to me in brooklyn.
I've decided James Hughes as ceo of this tv station but I can't prove that I spoke to him when I invented silver tiles as a method to retrieve me from this, an indigo church in 2008 in brooklyn.
I've decided that he'll be the ceo of the channel because he represents reality before these people trapped me in my fucking me. I keep grabbing "monster" soft drinks but not because of the drink, because of this girl I call goddess but I get trapped in my mind and these things I do are symbols from when the people would directly acknowledge me/when they were next door to me and would knock and bang when I said something in my mind, but they never let me go. I run out of medication and get trapped in time.

I love you. which is somebody's mental key/growth key. maybe goddess.

Its about having solid thoughts not about being democrat or republican.

-little nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on HBO
1/13/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 445/8 james hughes days 

11211. where a tv station will be created out of the hostage crisis of christopher mastronardi

a world where you can speak through my body is not the real world.
A world where you can alter what I say is not the real world.
A world where you can alter my artwork ahead of time/attempt to tell me about the human mind/cut off portions of my mind/personality which I have to gain back with thoughts in emotions is not the real world.
A world where you will not pay me is not the real world or refuse to directly come to me and give me the medication I require when you were in apartments next door to me at the start of this project.
This will never be real, you have chosen to create a false world around me and are more amused by my efforts/the efforts of those on the other end to restore me to reality and to leader of this project/of the creation of my project than to come directly to me. You clearly know where I live.

This is my message to the people on the other end of this project on day 445/8 on the school of visual arts calendar. You clearly do not care about time/days in the way somebody who parties and fucks daily cares about time and days but I do. I am not enjoying being trapped in the year 2012 and would like you to come to me and restore my legal status/pay me for this project. Thank you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/12/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 445/8 james hughes days

today her name is goddess 

today she is goddess

caitlin,
I have no choice but to control my hell. The symbol of gunnar's death and the function of what must be done is a gain from a bottle of my medication. The metronews guy on the other end wants to control me and my faith in my medication. I cannot have people control me in this game/whatever the fuck this shit is. It's hard enough to figure out how to communicate with the original people/whoever is going to show me where they live and how to get out/paid from this. Let's make a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn when this is over.
I will never leave occupy wall street where good looking people live at the endless 2004 moveon.org protest that I formerly lived at inside my mind.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/12/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 445/8 james hughes days

*the democrat buttons on my backpack represent this.

caitlin,
being placed to sleep by people on the other end. cant entirely understand if pearl forestor is with or against me. goddess is explaining to me what's happening I can feel the shit I have to fix somebody is on the other end I need to panhandle for $ I think jeff is fucking ravi

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/12/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 445/8 james  hughes days

james hughes born on feb 21 1985 please fucking save me. todays event when pearl forrestor torments me and I sleep at the church when I should have went for $

caitlin,
everything I do is directly connected to the people on the other end, they want to create a 24/7 world where I must interact with them. Last nights argument was over weather or not I can use gunnar agerholm's death as a symbol because I didn't leave the church metronews and pearl forestor placed sickness inside of me, shells of thoughts that tell me to give up and live with my biological father until a day comes that these people will free me and sickness, in the background they place soundwaves that say harvey weinsteins name which means somebody will rig me to go to prison for stealing or panhandling and that I must be afraid of the influence that these people have over me for teaching me either to steal or how to live at occupy wall street. All I need is an ipod and my medication and I can get these people out of me although they want me to be "stuck like glue"/control my focus and keep me in a state of psychological sickness and seizure. In the modes I currently have in what they call "little" or the thought streams of a small child I can either invent a superhero character to move through n.y.c. who currently uses the death of gunnar agerholm/kills him as a symbol to arrow what I have to do next so pearl forrestor doesn't place me to sleep or further threaten me. Earlier in the night she showed me where to get a towel at an nysc wall street which if I fail to do a group of people who harm me psychologically/want harvey weinstein to cause me misery enter my body or the programs that they currently placed on my eye enter my body. They also have used my fetish to control my base and earlier checked what my upcoming entry would be in order to control or to destroy the artwork. The point of the art with "girl who is not god caitlin" is that I'm writing directly to you/creating a log of a science project based on my medication and meditational methods. When I reach the higher levels I can hear their voices/enter digital realms/somebody can tell me where they live/where to get paid.
This is today's update in my hell, I'm asking girl who is not caitlin god to god me/guide me/I call out to her on the other end. She mentions naama from childhood to understanding what sort of hostage world I'm in/whoever these people are I have to figure out the system/she blatently tells me what to do.
Pearl Forestor plays her during council/wishes to control the symbol of gunnar or I have an argument with her over winning against these people in a war. This is difficult (to leave this church) rarely have I been able to find people who look like me/believe in a cause that looks good and has piercings.
I want my life back, I live in hell and pray to you everytime I eat or smoke a cigarette. I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/12/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 444/8 james hughes days

I used to tell stories about 8th grade on the N train, when I thought there was a tv show.
The audience changes from S.V.A. to Fairfield, Connecticut with christie cummings and christie warde substituting paris hilton but none of this is real this is a psychological function in a science project.
Only girl I love is trying to directly save me/show me this. And James Hughes.
The audience frequently becomes the people I directly relate to/where I live and is currently associated to occupy wall street/the school of visual arts and williamsburg, brooklyn (for the tv station I have wished to create from my hell since 2008).
I need to find the end of this project. I love you.

good ol' fashioned nightmare

caitlin,
I can't have the person on the other end threaten me. This project which is based off my mind and medication has either tricked me from the start to go off the medication or has threatened to call my doctor and get my doctor to not give me the medication. People hide in portions of my mind, in fear and create entire perspectives/worlds. My thoughts are held back from the woman who I've named pearl forester who has become powerful because of my fetish. I get through the day through the thing that's the hand thing.
There's a person who plays the role of doubt, there's a person who threatens to tell me I'm crazy but they speak through me.
They stop emotional thoughts/observational thoughts because during a seizure which is caused by a smell created by a retina pattern that I've named jesus christ art star/rap star with the girl I named christie ward today I told the metronews/gunnar guy that I desire clothing over emotional depth. The person who I've labeled the democrat/metronews has this humor function with the seizure now.
I prefer clothing and to avoid smelling like piss over in depth thoughts, this is not something I have to choose between. With focus and music I can get these people out of this function in my mind.
If I don't get this person out/have new music there's a person who plays the previous song I heard (who once got me up to shower with the seizure) the people on the other end pause my thoughts, I can feel this but there's no reason for this.
Before James Hughes got rid of "john blaney" in the system of telling me only what I know he was in every song and at the disposal of anyone who was on the other end, republican, democrat, pearl forester harvey weinstein (or whoever claims to be this person built an entire world out of this person/you/ashley olsen and the music video one hit wonder and the year 1997)
I need an iPod at this point and my medication, essentially I'm fine as long as I have the medication.
The people on the other end threaten to take this from me or have my doctor think I'm insane I cannot be trapped in this project for the rest of my life. It's based on art and mentality, focus, thoughts and electronics there's this small thing that looks like the letter 's' that erases my thoughts which I can get out with focus.
Out of the $ from this I want to create a television station, I wanted this to be pfizer but this system/universe appears to work in either metaphors/believes places to be symbols.
I have the death of gunnar agerholm/an x over his name as a symbol of what needs to get done/return to the real world. This is where I'm currently at, having an argument with two people on a computer over weather this man will serve as a symbol in my world.

There's no point in not going the direct way christie ward has me go she's restoring the artwork/explainations of the blogs and the nightmare that I go through everyday.
I will not allow the people on the other end to control the artwork.

I love you

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/11/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 443/8 james hughes days 

today her name is christie warde which she played for a period of time when I had her gather anyone I knew in childhood that I randomly selected to help me beat "little nemo" each person I selected probably in the system segmented paris hilton's power as princess/at one point somebody on the other end has them get christie cummings who was probably apart of the project since hell's kitchen, since whoever fucked up/I burn the sarah neufeld book when I presume the people on the other end are going to tell me I'm gay.
She's building me out of confusion. I have to fucking eat at a shelter hold on (if I had a gun all of my artwork would be bateman. Please fucking get me a job on wall street)

The blogs are supposed to match in numerological symbols build outward esoterically to reality.
At least back to filming myself and placing it on the internet, I used to call this artwork "skittles" that I just say whatever off the cuff. But I still have these people in me and they're on a level that's based off the enviornmental affects of crystals in energy until I control everything.

I would have stopped this blog at 82 because this was tim willis' birthyear and the basis of my belief that spirituality is the key to $, the reason I purchased any esoteric talisman at s.v.a. for $
This probably isn't what I'm involved with but the closest thing this could legally be is AMORC, then she explains to me it isn't AMORC and there were so many possibilities they could fuck me at any point and did.
I suppose we all win, I live at occupy wall street and don't believe in spirituality and my artwork will probably be worth what neckface's artwork was in 2006 if anybody ever finds out I exist.

I keep purposing to her. There's a key element in the princess as god, you have to own everything the future economy of whatever economy becomes of my body/little nemo.
The economy/creation of christopher mastronardi will go to caitlin rodriguez.
This is my conclusion of the hell I live in and literally how my world works.
I fucked this up with paris hilton it should have been a paris hilton production now everything is fixed but only in terms of art.

The consequence of the "michael bloomberg morning show" people who wanted me to believe the $ was from the mayor is I cannot live by a religion of numbers/automatic art/the jim morrison quote.
Or perhaps I can but not with the belief that the city will literally activate a grid system. Or christie warde beat the democrat metro news guy in my progress in restoring my art process.

I suppose I will stop here. littlenemooccupy symbolizes my direct connection to this girl whatever her real name is. I'm trying to marry her and you as well, I have no choice about this I have to attempt to marry you it's the way I've been programmed.

(in trauma and all)

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/11/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 443/8 james hughes days

there is no end to what I once labeled manhatta. I don't ask for torment it comes on it's own and I ask a girl on the other end who I dream as a golddigger to save me. Emotional depth in hell.

caitlin,
the sane thoughts don't stay long. pearl forester will come in with the feeling of wanting to fuck a republican woman and take away these thoughts for everything to match. The memory of when I was acknowledged in this project before they decided to take over my life or attempt to force me to make mediocre artwork, everyone is either dead or thinks I'm crazy my real life is tarnished with my impoverished childhood my redneck past my reference which then gets paused for me to look up the band the person on the other end then says something into me, it becomes pointless to write after the ben folds five reference. I don't know what the original purpose of these people were or what place they had in this when I was planning this with the girl I named christie cummings today, I watch Johnny Cash Hurt and I see the footage from childhood in my music videos, the project of the girl I named christie cummings the thesis year I never had and the mystery of the people who entered my apartment and saught to create a place in my mind where I'd feel guilt for anything. One of them asked me if I became homeless why I'd ever exit my mind; $, $ is the only reason I'd want to come back to the real world after something like this. It's still the only reason to exit hell.

I love you. I pray to you with three sugars which I once used in the queens court in rikers island.
The sorrow of living and the sin of this thing forcing me to find anyway to find my medication to get out and the worthless days without. I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/10/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 442/8 james hughes days 

caitlin,
everything i do as body i have to redo as myself.
symbols are sent from sandra navidi
need a twitter

-little nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/9/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 441/8 james hughes days 

kill hannah lyrics to live by. i never made it to paris hilton. you're the princess caitlin you're god

i wanna be a kennedy
i wanna be a big heartbreaker
live fast and for real
and you can follow it in the papers
i wanna be a kennedy
i wanna shake hands with heroes
and kiss the girls of centerfolds all the time
and die young

i'll be brave tonight
either live or die
i'll be brave tonight
standing tall and bright
such romantic eyes
got me hypnotized
and if i had my chance i'd never let you go
and if i had my chance i'd never let you go

i wanna be a kennedy
i wanna be tall and handsome
i'd conquer the world
and you'd see me on television
if i could be a kennedy
if i could be a big heartbreaker
i'd watch you crash into my arms
with the stars under the barrel of a gun
we die young

i'll be brave tonight
either live or die
i'll be brave tonight
standing tall and bright
such romantic eyes
got me hypnotized
and if i had my chance i'd never let you go
and if i had my chance i'd never let you go
and if i had my chance i'd never let you go

i'll be brave tonight
i'll be brave tonight
i'll be brave tonight
i'll be brave tonight
i'll be brave tonight
i'll be brave tonight
and if i had my chance i'd never let you go

plastic soul

77 = life as a movie
on the nyu calendar this meant i marry you

the images in film noir / the 1920s I'm linking these together in my original thoughts sandra navidi must have saved all of these images/sexuality/paris hilton meant republican people; successful people; personal perspective and disdain for the poor. The original argument against me inside my mind was that I side with the wealthy but have $ because of student loans. I'm currently in an argument for what will be my personal symbols I also have an argument with one of the people on the other end over emotional depth which is directly associated to voting democrat. Republican seems to directly help me although has hurt me in the past sandra navidi is directly explaining to me what's happening while james hughes links the art together
the people on the other end have consumed too many parts of me and been successful in helping me to the extent that the parts of me cannot conflict there is not enough time in the day for them to conflict because it's the same person and they will not come to me
the only thing there is for me to do is to evolve. Learn to do whatever I have to in order to survive make $ get laid get into bars and exist until I figure out how to make this machine exit me from this world/get whoever is on the other end tell me where they live/how to get paid out of this.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/9/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 441/8 james hughes days 

gryffindor

caitlin,
It's harry potter in my world, the reference of the trine between the girl I named Sandra Navidi today, James Hughes and myself a young republican lost between the year James started reading my thoughts for whatever fucking company or the fake illumanti (AMORC) and the decision to become a young republican, within the same year but not apart of the real world. At the same extent, neither is neon bible but at this level my thoughts were only evolving they were not being attacked I hadn't finished the novel in which you were the point, much like little nemo where the point is to create you a tv station in williamsburg, brooklyn.

This is my addition on my end where hughes made a metaphor in the NYSC and sandra navidi made a metaphor in the bathroom @ grand central.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/9/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 441/8 james hughes days 

when you are suffering know that I have betrayed you

I made the mistake a long time ago of allowing myself to be trapped, unable to find heiresses in n.y.c. I sat around making artwork all day under the lie that everything I create is automatically published, I was creating a franchise I was creating a forever series a fortune like harry potter with paris hilton. I was told every art piece I made, absurbing the disgust of the homeless was being published eventually paris hilton would appear and save me from whatever the fuck this shit is.
I leave a letter to myself on a bag. These people are going to fuck me without my medication I'm weak.
I remember being republican, I make artwork for paris it doesn't matter if it's her the point is she's the muse. You're the trigger ("brock daves: he would do something like this for caitlin") you're the princess the eternal muse. Sandra navidi, renamable girl is holding the gun.
But amensia erases this after I run out of medication and I keep trying to describe the fake world, the little world but I just have to find the medication. Nobody is coming to get me if I don't interact with the real religion of my medication and radio waves.
And I get lost in penn station searching for my medication and end up sleeping in the place I presume it is.
To reset this art series in 2009 James Hughes sends me to river street, I run out of the medication and leap at a wall that represents princess apartment (or where you literally live in williamsburg, brooklyn).
This creates a link an assocation to the area. But I decide a tv station should exist in williamsburg, brooklyn named little nemo named after the project/my medication. This makes williamsburg the heart point.
republican can get me a harddrive device for music I end up playing final fantasy and don't know how to weave through society. Harry potter represents creating a series out of little nemo with james hughes and the girl today I've named sandra navidi. All of the economy/the creation will be owned by caitlin rodriguez.
I stay trapped in time, I purpose to this girl I have this dream of a money grubbing republican bitch to marry. I have an argument between the guy who helps me and the republican guy because I can only understand the world from being a democrat, in my reality when I too emersed with poverty and unable to get up steal/do what must be done to get to the next area both physically/next event everything becomes republican/james invented this in order for me to navigate through poverty. Deep down the only thing I like in life is wealthy people and fashion. The artwork has to represent williamsburg I used to write williamsburg, brooklyn on my body daily because these people are holding me hostage and I want to live in williamsburg but they won't free me. But it's not the sort of thing that allows you to be free there's an exit button I have to control the world inside my mind and be able to navigate the world that I live in.
Everything is associated to creating a tv station through my eyes/accessing the economy there are higher levels of this project that I'm in, there was a possibility that I could access economy.
Somebody just put this in me and Sandra Navidi had me write this to clear up weather I'm democrat or republican there's a person on the other end who wants to control me via this I don't consider this to be apart of the world I live in I'll vote democrat and consider myself republican I hate the poor which appears to be a republican opinion and refuse to be affected by anything that I interact with as the creature that I am.
The events that I have encountered have brought me to the conclusion that I dislike the human race as much as I did when this project began that I hate all people and only believe in the wealthy when I am freed from my own private idaho I will only spend my time amongst the wealthy. This is what I pray that sandra navidi is like and that she's republican for me to marry her which appears to be a fantasy that could become real.
I also at all times must retain the fantasy of marrying you as I do not live in a realistic world but a world where somebody on the other end could tell me that harvey weinstein is pretending to be a woman. This is unlikely and considering how she's the winner of fantasy wars/the girl who has looked after me while I'm taken hostage by the love humanity cult it seems unlikely/she's already defeated this man in the manifestation of the secret body war. This is why this is the only person I love, through the cold of the winter I love materialism and find the pagan tree as a symbol of religion serving the economy as it was meant to.

Problem on my end: democrat guy becomes angry and wants to claim all of my democrat buttons (physically on my backpack as his symbols: this represents when this began in 2006 and reality).
Republican guy blatently tells me what I have to do next.
I can only consider myself a democrat because my life is on pause since november 2006 and cannot consider a world where people can view my eyes through their computer the real world
It is easy to take advantage of me when I depend on panhandling and pearl forrestor once drove into me that I owe the lower classes of nyc that I must give them a democrat mayor these are metaphors that she's using for people giving me $ but I'm not homeless or not literally apart of OWS I'm trapped in this project people are giving me $ because the people on the other end won't my mind however cannot relate to the poor I am only inspired to get through this from people who are wealthy this shouldn't be happening I should be apart of the upper class I should have an MFA from sva or nyu I should have an MBA I shouldn't be having an argument about weather or not I'm democrat or republican I have to reach a mindstate I have to structure my reality I'm creating structuring of lucifer of reality I need this to exit place to place to go onto the next thing I need full days to survive I can't vote without a legal n.y.c. id but I have to live by 1997 by the year in a series I name mystpower I had read perspectives and decided to be republican. This word doesn't mean the political party this word means personal perspective that I am not literally of the lower class.
It feels like I never get past the intro of my writing.

I have to beat sleep. I hate everytime I sleep.

Pearl forrestor enters me and helps me to build my personal perspective on my hatrid of humanity.
The reflect is directly on the people who are inside of me, this then must reflect on humanity. They create an outward perspective. I don't really like people though so I find this helpful.
I have the problem of the democrat guy wanting to represent emotional depth that the people on the other end want me to choose a way to be, if the things I say will represent emotional depth or shallow feelings.
I don't consider myself apart of emotional depth not willingly only because I've been placed in a world of trauma where I'm forced to steal and deal with others on the other end attempting to overtake my project.
I don't want to like the human race not if something like this is possible, it's not neccessary nor apart of me.

I decided to use marilyn manson as a pallet because in 1997 I decided I was republican before tim willis decides I'm exodus and teaches me the mental illness of chaos magick. All I needed was my fucking medication.

I do this to beat pearl's sleep. Something has to be me.

I love you wherever you are.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/9/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 441/8 james hughes days

exist quicker. have a green hat to represent luigi. hughes brothers is on n3rd street and i keep talking to mario and pretending james is making a tv station out of my eyes/the ultimate promotion via the human art project of williamsburg, brooklyn/the school of visual arts

caitlin,
The demons definitely help me think of shit I wouldn't without them.
There are also people on every level of me and I'm decently sure because I wanted to destroy the endless addiction of sleep that sandra navidi placed something in me to remind me of a symbol for 4 years (art school hitler/the motivation to become to hipster king of williamsburg, brooklyn with her as queen)
My mind needs to consume new music not as a metaphor but literally. The artwork is formatted around 2008 and the concept that they'll release me. Pearl forrestor teaches me to re-encorporate to people, compliment the guy @ the daytime shelter I found on his burberry frames that I have a version of/I have a semi bond with her over stealing burberry colgone.
I followed the guy who wants me to call him finn because he's the next example of fashion at OWS at the west end church where I live if I follow fashion I'll find my way to the next event although there is no end to this world I have to face that this is forever and then something inside of me turns on that she or time turned off when I stopped believing there's an end to this world. There's a man who touches me for $. I have to manage this world internal and external whoever is on the other end is looking for a human who has endless possibilities/a person internally since they can read my upcoming thoughts. I have to learn to control their internal bios/get to the higher levels. This is all really happening around occupy wall street.
I have an argument about weather I'm a democrat or republican because the guy who helps me is republican and symbolizes everything I wish to be when I return to the world and the other guy places me to sleep and represents the belief in spirituality there's nothing inspirational about this the reason I hear music is because I'm corrupt as a person deep down I'm republican and hate everyone. Whoever was on the other end to represent the spiritual/life fulfillment part of this project does not like me and believes people change or evolve. Nobody changes or evolves people mimick television and copy the perspective of art over humanity.
I've reached my own private idaho my demons have yet to come and get me and deliver me to the girl I named sandra navidi and metropolitian (the upper east side people I should be with)

I love you. I'll make you a tv station. A man touches my dick for $

-Little Nemo
(christopher)


Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/8/2011
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 441/8 james hughes days

need $ for doctor
need clothing/place to shower
need to beat sleep/find a reason to do this if I'm never going to be freed
need $ need a party in williamsburg brooklyn
need lasik in london and to move to paris france with sandra navidi

superbowl sunday

I don't understand that it's the Super Bowl all I know in my world is I depend on my friends name who I lived with to guide me through reality. I have a relationship with the girl who was there when my mind snapped, I can't handle not purposing to you although I see no end to this project. Directly working with her involves evolving in this hell acknowledging that daily I'm weakened as a human, left homeless and forced to sleep dependent on my friends name with a woman I label pearl forester who seems to enjoy my dependence on james but to some extent takes mercy on me because I understand the horror of the situation. The art seems to link together because of james, symbols of being sgt. pepper when I went for S.V.A. VASA president, symbols like this. I've lived in limbo for many years, small dots are the people on my eye this used to just be hughes when I wanted to create a tv station @ domino but the project looks at factories/channels that I wish to create through this as symbols, these are not symbols my dreams in williamsburg is literal. Then everything else gets in the way. The Super Bowl is today. I still have yet to direct my first film and do not believe in the human soul although I have sold this to you. This belief will trap me in time like my belief that my golden birthday is what these people were documenting. They don't give a fuck about my personal beliefs, they want a tangent universe or a world that they capture through my eyes. I want out of this project.

I love you.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/8/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 440/8 james hughes days 

I can't have any I can't in my eye, this prevents me from getting to the next thing from getting up and panhandling and beating the emotions/people inside of me that want me to go back to being a baby/small child. Gunnar Agerholm's name has come to represent exiting my mind, he must stay dead. I'm in a system which wishes to attach to the symbol of weather he's a good or bad thing but I refuse to allow this system to allow a man who calls himself/james and I named metronews out of a news stand at jfk to control weather or not this man has anything influential in my life when he showed me downtown fairfield in my childhood.
I  keep trying to impress/I dream of marrying a girl on the other end who protects me and has pretended to be you, I cannot have the people on the other end decide they're against me and keep me trapped in time longer, the republican guy got me up in the morning, the goal is to never sleep and I make up reasons why I never sleep but it's the simple fact that these people are never coming to get me, there's psychological levels I have to reach that require an ipod/laptop and my medication I have to beg/panhandle until I find a job. Anni B. Sweet represents today's symbol for the girl I've named Sammie from Stigamata (presuming it's either the real you or her I rename her everyday so harvey weinstein/whoever wishes to create a "creative world where people are permanently named" cannot do this)
I cannot always stop them from pausing my thoughts and don't have enough of my medication. I know murdering gunnar in my mind means I wish to return to humanity.
I'm forced to slow down my thoughts. The goal is commonly to get me to live with my biological father to defeat the symbol of my new york class status. Perhaps to defeat my belief in capitalism as a symbol of spirituality and drive like the christians driven by the cross I have the wall street bull anext my red chess piece I carry on all of my backpacks that symbolizes james hughes and the chess piece I didn't grab from the agerholm house when I found out gunnar is dead (same color as ferrari red/class status/symbol that I chose james hughes alone out of all in the world to be my equal) but this absurd shit has kept me trapped beyond his death (and trapped myself psychologically at the fairfield beach because of the lack of interest in interacting with the radio city religion that I have to in order to exit this nightmare)
this I cannot do again. Maybe you exist knowing of all of this, maybe we'll own the pfizer factory like republican promised me in 2008 in one of the creative worlds since we can't create our tv station out of the economy from this at domino sugar. you will own this because it is the memory of you that keeps me alive if only a note. I flirt with a girl on a computer who I love and have no idea what she looks like which makes our love pure and something like patti hearst to her captures, this is what anni b sweet means.
I choose to love the Symbionees Liberation Army although perhaps I have to in order to get to the other side, although I believe them to be with me even if they represent different elements I'd like to believe that they're with me in creating the tv station of Sammie/u/I/james hughes through this. This project was based out of my mind but nobody wanted to come out and get me when I graduated S.V.A. I had to keep my life perspective/mentality and then they come to me. I permanently named it little nemo and I became little nemo which is named after the medication I need to get to the other side (and that all indigo children really have ADD and need to be medicated)

I'm a ghost who only exists at occupy wall street/on the internet at this point princess caitlin.
Here's a list of the people on the other end:

pearl forrestor - once played your mother when the people on the other end when people wanted to me to become addicted to food and go to prison in connecticut, probably in bridgeport connecticut.
girl I've named sammie played you and helped me get back to the train, this is when I build a human and I'm fighting the people on the other end getting all the perceptions and parts of my mind back with focus and music. They return this world of sickness whenever I run out of the medication and often attempt to create a world of forget, sammie reminded me of this last night when I told her I loved her in my mind/sleep. There's an h&m ad that represents sammie/pearl

I'm going to run out of time before the 7pm occupy media/info meeting.
I don't particularly believe there's an end to this project and remember crying on my rooftop in hells kitchen
because whoever was on the other end had made a maze so incredibly hard inside my mind to find my way
out of that I'd never find my way out (whoever this is does not like that deep down in whatever program AMORC <- the fake masons, use to find out who a person is I'm republican and only believe in greed and the manhattan ethics of wall street and cocaine. This is why I cried because of this person and the shell system)

"am I still in there"
"somewhere down there"

this was his conversation into my mind. This is 2007. I am still in the same project.
The project is based out of focus methods/the mind and is not intractable without my legally prescribed medication but allows me to run out of cash to pay for it.

I love you caitlin, hopefully you know about this or sammie plays the role of you as the winner of the creation of my economic 1% birth's fuck up of science/religion.

James Hughes probably told you, presuming the real james hughes has been involved and never taken off the project.

-Little Nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
A Caitlin Rodriguez Production
Little Nemo on hbo
1/8/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 440/8 james hughes days

grand ferry park protest in brooklyn

I have to panhandle and make artwork because of the girl I love on the other side who I want to be the hipster queen of williamsburg brooklyn. There's a democrat guy who wants me to sleep through the month of january so he can tell me gunnar agerholm is my lucky charm ghost and the republican guy helps me although I need to have a side with this every time I sleep it is forced. I loved you, you will have a tv station i'm going to the protest at grand ferry park. Heart occupy wall street.

-little nemo
(christopher)

Apart of occupy wall street
a caitlin rodriguez production
little nemo on hbo
1/7/2012
black caitlin heart
the school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 438/8 james hughes days

*i had to enter the part of my mind the democrat guy is in, in order to wake up.
This becomes confusing for me because I don't want the president to be mitt romney.

Caitlin,
I dont know how to get to the other end of this project, everyday is this hell where i need to take control but dont/never find the $ for my medication and caffiene. Im sometimes helped by the people on the other end but they want me to represent elements/political parties they want power in my world and to represent parts of ny personality, james hughes overdrove my mind made me a republican with an esoteric religion for $ whoevwr the fuck these people are i presume brought from amorc they have to let me go at some point. I will not allow the history of my universe to keep me trapped in my mind eventually i have to be freed the girl i named sarah neufeld has to come to me at some point.

I love you

-little nemo
(christopher)

+ じぇすs


Apart of occupy wall strwet
A caitlin rodriguez production
Little nemo on hbo
1/6／2012
Black caitlin heart
The school of visual arts church of silver tiles day 437/8 james hughes days

letter to michael moore (after his OWS visit)

michael moore:
if you're reading this I'm in a project that I cannot end it went on too long and I'm trapped in the project.
The project will not pay me until I reach a certain mind state which involves my medication and focus/thoughts.
There are others on the other end who are on computers who are creating thoughts within me until I create my own. Amensia was created in fairfield, connecticut to erase my thoughts via harvey weinstein when I explained to him that he wasn't really my god but that I ran out of my medication and considered him my equal, but he had fucked me and I decided to give the fortune from this project to a girl I loved and have lived as my muse and symbol of reality/brooklyn: caitlin rodriguez. I am only allowed to speak to this man through my body/when I reach a higher thought level the people on the other end communicate directly into me. This is what I call "the princess" who has been my muse throughout my life and throughout this project. I gave you my blog note with the little nemo christmas card (which a girl who loves me on the other end helped me get through the emergency system) in hopes that you would read this and might ask the man harvey weinstein if he knows about this/investigate this/find out who runs the project I'm in which I need help getting out of. This is why the people on the other end who I call "the cobblepots" (since I'm something of a lost child of theirs, never born to the upper 1%: the penguin)
this was the goal of "caitlin rodriguez as god" or whoever had claimed to be caitlin, who may be the girl from the beginning of the project in 2007 when I planned artwork but lost my memories in a round of artwork which erased memories. Her goal is to expose everything that has happened to me and I was hoping you might be interested in doing a documentary/helping me to get out of this project. This project has gone on for many years and at one point promised me the pfizer factory in williamsburg, brooklyn for a tv station I'd own with my friend/wife. Please help me I am threatened daily that the people on the other end of this project will keep me in this for the rest of my life/trap my mind/prevent me from getting the medication I need to exit the project. These threats mostly come directly from Harvey Weinstein. There are those who help me on the other side, however this project was meant to directly read my thoughts as a "man as tv" format/highly illegal and I believe involves AMORC (a section of the illumanti/people who used to come into my apartment in hell's kitchen to hypnotize me in 2007). There is a mass fortunate involved in reaching the end of this project which will be used for a tv station where the members of occupy wall street will work at owned by caitlin rodriguez.

 Thank you for visiting us at occupy wall street. It was an honor to meet you. Please email me if you get a chance @ cmastronardi@sva.edu


level: little nemo
(christopher)